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[methodicaldoubt]

It's been quite a while huh? Lots has changed. Lots has stayed the same. I guess it's life. I set out to find myself, my place, to start a journey, to start my life. And here we are, a year later, a life later, sometimes it feels like yesterday, sometimes it feels like its been years. In ways I feel like I have eroded, In ways I have grown further than i thought possible. I've had nervous breakdowns, the worst hangovers, delt with some really shitty jobs, learned a lot about the world and the people in it. But in a way i'm still the same person, my name is the same, i have the same flaws and skills, i have honed some of my beliefs and left some behind. It's amazing the speed that life has. I still struggle with my view of myself, with trying to reconcile the person i want to be and the person i have become. But the point is that I'm a stronger person now, and maybe i at least have the confidence to approach myself with a critical eye. My obsessions and flaws are critical to who i am, and who knows, maybe i will someday be able to at least control them.

This will be my last public entry, if anyone stumbles upon this feel free to take a look at where i've come from since i will not be making old entries private.

~Noah