(no subject)
Feeling somewhat ill at ease recently.
I look back at my life and the few things I can remember... none of it means anything. I've been so lost my entire life. Like trying to find a map or guide or something to help get myself on track for once, but I don't think my problem is that I don't have a map... I've just never had a destination. Day after day I wake to nothing, and subsequently those nights I go to sleep to nothing... Everything I do to distract myself from the fact I have no idea what life is. I keep thinking that maybe if I were to be in a brand new environment with nothing and no one that knows of my and my history... I could become a new me, and hope that he has some clue; then my eyes open, looking into myself to see what's there: nothing.
I look back at my life and the few things I can remember... none of it means anything. I've been so lost my entire life. Like trying to find a map or guide or something to help get myself on track for once, but I don't think my problem is that I don't have a map... I've just never had a destination. Day after day I wake to nothing, and subsequently those nights I go to sleep to nothing... Everything I do to distract myself from the fact I have no idea what life is. I keep thinking that maybe if I were to be in a brand new environment with nothing and no one that knows of my and my history... I could become a new me, and hope that he has some clue; then my eyes open, looking into myself to see what's there: nothing.