Revolations
It's been a while I'm sure!! Many of you are suddenly thinking, OMG SHANE POSTED SOMETHING?! WTH?! Yes I know it is a shock!! It's funny how a lot of times as a child you grow up not even aware you're making your story in life, and then watch something acting like, I want that to happen to me!! It's funny how we as human beings look for that same thing to happen instead of creating our own life story. I finally came to terms after years of not understanding that my biggest roadblock was I was trying to create a world where what I saw came to be. The way people acted and how situations played out. XD It's silly to admit but every time I saw a good anime I'd go, I'd like that to happen to me, and I'd dwell on it searching for that, when in reality I was just living under a mask of something else. I realized that I'm already creating my own life story and in retrospect if you will I'm making my own anime about my life and the adventures of Shane. It doesn't matter if they're big, small or whatever, but they're adventures in LIFE. It's funny how years of programming to think one way via all sorts of communication made me feel that way till now where I've finally come to terms that it wasn't helping me at all. It was like living in the past where you don't live, but think you are. Honestly I wouldn't have realized this if I hadn't read the books that I read or gotten around the people I've gotten around. It's over the consistent time and effort of doing this that made all the baby steps to add up. I'm excited because I'm only 25 and now that I'm realizing this it's given me a greater confidence and zest for life to live. *Not that was an issue before LOL* I will be free in 2 years making 6 digits and the fact I can do that and what it'll bring me is worth any process I have to go through, and it has exposed giant gaps of pain in my life that I hated looking at, but you can't clean a wound you don't want to open ya know!!
I'm very much at peace with not dating and everything. I mean hell, it wouldn't be fair to the girl I love if I can't take care of myself, how can I expect to take care of her? *Yes I'm aware of the whole the girl can help out thing, but that's not the point. The point is I need to be responsible and if I'm lacking in that then adding someone else into it isn't helping, it's just causing more problems.* That and I know what kind of girl I'm looking for and most girls have no idea how to process who I am. I'm very much unlike other guys truthfully and I have the confidence to speak it as such. Some people would take it for arrogance, but that's hardly the case. I just know what is required and I have no trouble speaking it when asked. I am indeed a rare breed of man anymore just by looking around and noticing things that I never noticed before. There are others out there just like me and that's awesome, and those are the guys I want to get around, as well as girls of the same caliber, and I'm doing with more and more success thankfully.
Anyways it's almost 10am and my laundry beckons. :P Even I have clothes to clean!! *laughs* SeeYa!
I'm very much at peace with not dating and everything. I mean hell, it wouldn't be fair to the girl I love if I can't take care of myself, how can I expect to take care of her? *Yes I'm aware of the whole the girl can help out thing, but that's not the point. The point is I need to be responsible and if I'm lacking in that then adding someone else into it isn't helping, it's just causing more problems.* That and I know what kind of girl I'm looking for and most girls have no idea how to process who I am. I'm very much unlike other guys truthfully and I have the confidence to speak it as such. Some people would take it for arrogance, but that's hardly the case. I just know what is required and I have no trouble speaking it when asked. I am indeed a rare breed of man anymore just by looking around and noticing things that I never noticed before. There are others out there just like me and that's awesome, and those are the guys I want to get around, as well as girls of the same caliber, and I'm doing with more and more success thankfully.
Anyways it's almost 10am and my laundry beckons. :P Even I have clothes to clean!! *laughs* SeeYa!