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i have omitted some of the shit in my life this summer and it honestly feels good. i feel so much better. i don't deal with my sister that much anymore. she's in nashua all the time with her children and what not. i don't stay home all the time anymore. i don't put myself through dealing with shitty friends that only think of themselves. i think that's what ruined most of the end of the senior year. i just stopped talking to everyone. and now i realized there was only certain people i needed to stop talking too. everything just feels cleansed from me. i'm glad a few of the people can go to college without the pretense of me liking them. i know what to care about. half ass friends are of no concern to me. i feel bad for those people. i really do. they didn't even realized how they treated people and now they turn around and realize people don't like them. i really hope they learn that the world is more then them. there's more then just themselves. i've known this for a long time. now i'm realizing i have to pay more attention to myself and less to others around me. i know im not important to the world but i'm the only thing in the world i can control.
august 16th & 17th im going to be building a habitat for humanity. i'm really excited. i've always wanted to help with one of these projects and now i really can. then the 21st im having a luncheon with the non profit organizations im going to be working with over the next two years. this all comes through my scholarship. i know im really lucky to have received such a honorable award. this was like it was meant for me. i just wrote a short paper on all the volunteer work i've done over the years. i never did the volunteer work expecting to get anything out of it. i just did it all for fun. and in the end i was paid back more than i could ever imagine. my actual title is a community leader scholar. i sound so professional. i am ready for college completely.
i just want to get out of high school. i am physically out. but i don't want to childish drama, or the feeling of no control over myself. im ready for the responsibility of it all. i have already purchased a car by myself and i've done everything for it. including a spare key, insurance, small repairs, and inspection. all it needs now it a small left door speaker. very minimal and no needed right away. for once everything in my life is set. i'm going to college and don't have to worry about cost. i have a job now and for the school year. i have a car to get from point a to point b. i have a working cell phone. i am healthy... well i appear healthy. i like my friends i have right now. i have fun with them. i do miss ally tho. i have a wonderful boyfriend that loves me.
august 16th & 17th im going to be building a habitat for humanity. i'm really excited. i've always wanted to help with one of these projects and now i really can. then the 21st im having a luncheon with the non profit organizations im going to be working with over the next two years. this all comes through my scholarship. i know im really lucky to have received such a honorable award. this was like it was meant for me. i just wrote a short paper on all the volunteer work i've done over the years. i never did the volunteer work expecting to get anything out of it. i just did it all for fun. and in the end i was paid back more than i could ever imagine. my actual title is a community leader scholar. i sound so professional. i am ready for college completely.
i just want to get out of high school. i am physically out. but i don't want to childish drama, or the feeling of no control over myself. im ready for the responsibility of it all. i have already purchased a car by myself and i've done everything for it. including a spare key, insurance, small repairs, and inspection. all it needs now it a small left door speaker. very minimal and no needed right away. for once everything in my life is set. i'm going to college and don't have to worry about cost. i have a job now and for the school year. i have a car to get from point a to point b. i have a working cell phone. i am healthy... well i appear healthy. i like my friends i have right now. i have fun with them. i do miss ally tho. i have a wonderful boyfriend that loves me.