everyone needs to stop eating up everyone else's shit.
fuck.
im sick of caring about everyone else.
fuck.
i just want to have fun and graduate with some friends.
fuck.
i wish someone would please call me already and fix everything. im sick of being first to apoligize. and i don't think i really did anything wrong. but if i did please point it out and i'll feel bad about everything. and i swear i won't be unreasonable. i know im mean and bitchy to other people but i won't be short with you.
fuck.
i have a new art project. its a found art shadow box.
giving up on a car. neon is gone. guess i can go buy drugs now after all.
my mommy wants me to have a hayride for my birthday. im turning fucking 18 not 8. ill only agree to it if i can get lit before.
fuck.
i wish the pressure of SENIORS! WHOO! would die.
i don't want to have the senior sleep out. our grade is stupid and i don't want my property to get fucked up. making my cows eat the grass after everyone ran out drunk and threw up in it is animal cruelty.
fuck.
i hope that stupid little girl gets the point finally that michael is mine and is going to be for a long time. just because your realationship is no longer, doesn't my boyfriend suddenly wants to hang out with you. so you can go date girls now since its trendy and all to be bi and kiss girls.
fuck.
going to mass art and science of sleep on friday. not school. wandering boston with my crazy cute boyfriend while everyone is in school is just a good thought.
i think we all just need to stop pretending. get real.