Just go

[metalpunkuk]

I promise you that from my experience so far there is nothing worse in life than letting someone go that you love

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[vampirotica]

:(

I think it's better to make a complete arse of yourself and be rejected, than not say anything at all and miss the chance.

I know that's not this situation, but still :P

But the reason you didn't act on it is because you're a loyal person, who does the right thing x

[metalpunkuk]

It was. I like that I did what was the right thing at the time.
But it hurts so much to know that I never even found out if there was a chance.

I can accept it and move past it, but now and again I will always feel it. It's not often you feel so strongly about someone that you are prepared to fundamentally change your life to be with them...

Thanks x

[vampirotica]

Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have loved at all.

:)

x

[metalpunkuk]

Yes.
But having loved and lost is a horrible pain and only a metaphorical benefit.

When she left it felt like someone ripping my heart out, blending it into a smoothie, putting it into a spiked shape container and piercing my head with it repeatedly. I have never felt anything like it. Not even being cheated on and separating from my wife hurt as much as that did.

[vampirotica]

It is a horrible pain. But if you never experienced it, you wouldn't know how good the others side is - would you?

"You don't know peace til you've had suffering"

Oh I'm a veritable fountain of quoted wisdom tonight x

[metalpunkuk]

Indeed, a dictionary of quotes!

Agreed, but I haven't had peace since then, so it feels like I haven't yet got the other half of that karmic bargain.

[vampirotica]

Too soon. You need to give yourself plenty of time. These holidays you're planning are a good start. Distracting yourself is the best method, I think.

Why do you think I spent so long in Thailand ;)

[metalpunkuk]

I hope so.
True.

*hug*

I am owed.