Okay.. so who is sick of the Happy Ami?
*The world raises hand*
Or at least that's how it feels. Cuz it just seems like all of this stupid stuff around my life is trying to make this new-found happiness disappear. Obviously mother and brother dearest didn't get the memo about me being happy about stuff no matter what. Or maybe they did and they're trying to test me. Who the hell knows? All I know is that both of them are getting me pretty close to where I was before and I don't want to be there. I think I know why my brother is acting this way. His girlfriend wants to stay longer in Italy, so she won't come back until September. But my mom.. *el sigh* Everyday there are little hints my mother drops, I'm sure without her even knowing it, of how much more my brother and sister mean to her than I do. And sometimes I feel stupid saying that. Cuz, hell. I know she loves me. But it just hurts when she says things that make it seem otherwise. Especially when she doesn't know she's saying it.
And that's not all. Issues with time and school and sometimes even my friends. Certain people are not making things easy. And it's not who you think it is. Erica, Jill, this is not concerning you. You make things better, never worse. A little frustrating. But I still love ya! :) It's not that I don't still love my friends.. just that some of them are acting in a way that justs.. makes me wanna... be less happy.
All I know is that there are definitely cool people out there. All of you, I love you no matter what.
And while Happy Ami is great and all, you may be seeing some different green star feelings sometime soon. Cuz one teenage girl can only take so much.
Or at least that's how it feels. Cuz it just seems like all of this stupid stuff around my life is trying to make this new-found happiness disappear. Obviously mother and brother dearest didn't get the memo about me being happy about stuff no matter what. Or maybe they did and they're trying to test me. Who the hell knows? All I know is that both of them are getting me pretty close to where I was before and I don't want to be there. I think I know why my brother is acting this way. His girlfriend wants to stay longer in Italy, so she won't come back until September. But my mom.. *el sigh* Everyday there are little hints my mother drops, I'm sure without her even knowing it, of how much more my brother and sister mean to her than I do. And sometimes I feel stupid saying that. Cuz, hell. I know she loves me. But it just hurts when she says things that make it seem otherwise. Especially when she doesn't know she's saying it.
And that's not all. Issues with time and school and sometimes even my friends. Certain people are not making things easy. And it's not who you think it is. Erica, Jill, this is not concerning you. You make things better, never worse. A little frustrating. But I still love ya! :) It's not that I don't still love my friends.. just that some of them are acting in a way that justs.. makes me wanna... be less happy.
All I know is that there are definitely cool people out there. All of you, I love you no matter what.
And while Happy Ami is great and all, you may be seeing some different green star feelings sometime soon. Cuz one teenage girl can only take so much.