Updateage.
Found out today that I like someone - alot. And it hurts me inside because I've been down this road before, and its one I'd rather not take again. I point blank refused to fall for anyone again 2 years ago when I got screwed over by my Ex. I refused to be loved, I promised myself that I'd never be good enough for anyone ever. And I done well sticking to it, til I met Dan.
Now I'm feeling all this shit - as I done before, and I'm literally terrified of getting hurt again. I really could not take another heartbreak situation, and you ask anyone, I'm a very strong person - until it comes to relationships. I feel like I'm trapped in a sense, in my mind I am scared, In my heart I am happy. Sounds odd, but it's true. It's been 8 weeks since we started dating, and like, It was ok at first, I stayed my distance, now it's becoming more intense for me, I'm starting to feel for this guy, and I don't know if I'm ready for this shit again.
I gotta talk to him tomorrow. Ask him what he expects of me, what he wants from this relationship, and what he wants from me. If he wants something I don't, I'll have to leave.
I guess things are getting to heavy for my battered heart. But it's extremely slow as it is, if it goes any slower, we'll be in reverse.
I don't want to hurt Dan, but then I don't want to be in a relationship I can't handle at my age. I do love him though. I guess we'll see.
Love you all.
x Lozzie
Now I'm feeling all this shit - as I done before, and I'm literally terrified of getting hurt again. I really could not take another heartbreak situation, and you ask anyone, I'm a very strong person - until it comes to relationships. I feel like I'm trapped in a sense, in my mind I am scared, In my heart I am happy. Sounds odd, but it's true. It's been 8 weeks since we started dating, and like, It was ok at first, I stayed my distance, now it's becoming more intense for me, I'm starting to feel for this guy, and I don't know if I'm ready for this shit again.
I gotta talk to him tomorrow. Ask him what he expects of me, what he wants from this relationship, and what he wants from me. If he wants something I don't, I'll have to leave.
I guess things are getting to heavy for my battered heart. But it's extremely slow as it is, if it goes any slower, we'll be in reverse.
I don't want to hurt Dan, but then I don't want to be in a relationship I can't handle at my age. I do love him though. I guess we'll see.
Love you all.
x Lozzie