oh so very lonely...
The beginning of another terrible weekend I suppose. I've just been sitting around my Dad's house, doing pretty much nothing...again. By about 4 pm my Dad was even feeling sorry for me...and if you know my situation you'd know that that's damn pathetic. He kept on saying, "You should call someone up and go to a movie", or, "do you want to bring a friend to ride in the new airplane tomorrow?" It just makes me more depressed that I have to get prompted by my father to do anything...not that I don't WANT to...
The only plus is that I finished another scarf, so if anyone likes brown and pink, tell me. I'm almost done with the purple one too...although I'm not sure anyone will want it...
I dunno how I feel...it's probably just my lack of motivation...I've tried...I guess it's not up to me. I hate not controlling my life...I don't know how things are anymore and it's upsetting. I have no idea what my grades are...and suddenly I get a 93% on my calculus test? What the hell is this? I don't even feel good about it anymore, cuz I know I'll just fail the next one and be right back where I was.
Sometimes I think of graduating early and just leaving. I don't want to be in school anymore...I just want to stop taking in all this useless information. Knowing to much is a very bad thing and suddenly your mind is clouded with fact..when all people really need is imagination and fantasy. I don't want to loose mine.
I could study abroad...maybe in England. I don't care...I just know that not many people would mind me going...and no one would cry when I got on the plane...
Reality
Comes over me
And leads me to
Eternity...
~Kelsey~
The only plus is that I finished another scarf, so if anyone likes brown and pink, tell me. I'm almost done with the purple one too...although I'm not sure anyone will want it...
I dunno how I feel...it's probably just my lack of motivation...I've tried...I guess it's not up to me. I hate not controlling my life...I don't know how things are anymore and it's upsetting. I have no idea what my grades are...and suddenly I get a 93% on my calculus test? What the hell is this? I don't even feel good about it anymore, cuz I know I'll just fail the next one and be right back where I was.
Sometimes I think of graduating early and just leaving. I don't want to be in school anymore...I just want to stop taking in all this useless information. Knowing to much is a very bad thing and suddenly your mind is clouded with fact..when all people really need is imagination and fantasy. I don't want to loose mine.
I could study abroad...maybe in England. I don't care...I just know that not many people would mind me going...and no one would cry when I got on the plane...
Reality
Comes over me
And leads me to
Eternity...
~Kelsey~