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So yeah thank god that tomarwo is friday! I need masive sleep! So does any one have any hing fun planed for the weekend? I don't. god my life is lame. Got a movie, something hell can't remember, all I care is that it has john cluad vandam in it. dear god he is fine yum! so tanya still can't do the pic, gonna have to show me. I know that this is stupid but even though are relationship sucked I still miss doug, calm down tanya, it's just I miss being loved, and held and someone actully telling me that I was buetyfull. He may have been an ass, but at times he made me feal so good. just wish I could find someone to love me because I have so much love to give in return! One thing I never got as child was comfort. my mom was at the bar most of the time when I was with her, and you know my grandmother never gave me comfort, so when Doug came along I felt something I never felt befor and I loved it. Deep down I am a very hurt child that wants to be loved. I just miss his stron amrs embrasing me when the world hurt me, him saying everything was going to be all right. I guese it is not him I miss it is the atension he gave. I know that it will be so long untill I get that. And there is so many time when late at night I lie in bed crying about all the shit that goes on here, and all I have for comfort is my teddy bear and I hate it. well I guese you really don't want to hear me bitch about my life so I will go now.