You Think You Know Someone
The reason I'm pretty vocal about what I enjoy/despise and why I'm vocal about the REASONS for my enjoyment/despising (despisal? despisery?) of something or someone is, honestly, so everyone's on the same page when I do or say something. I don't really feel a need to hide a lot about myself. Once upon a time, maybe I thought I did, but I keep pretty much everything about me out in the open.
Mostly so that NO ONE is surprised when I do or don't do something. So that no one goes, "Wow, you think you know someone." When I do or say something, I don't want anyone to wonder "Uh, is that normal for Brian?" I want them to say, "Yeah, that's pretty par for the course for B."
Because I don't like up-ending or surprising people (unless it's good-natured surprising).
I thought I knew someone and a while ago I discovered I really didn't and what made it worse was that I WANTED to know that person much better than I did and better than I probably ever will. I really have to stop creating "Mind's Eye" versions of people I know.
So yeah. Sometimes people do things that make you do a double take and... well, I don't really want to do that. To other people. Not on this level, anyway.
Yeah, I...
...yeah.
Mostly so that NO ONE is surprised when I do or don't do something. So that no one goes, "Wow, you think you know someone." When I do or say something, I don't want anyone to wonder "Uh, is that normal for Brian?" I want them to say, "Yeah, that's pretty par for the course for B."
Because I don't like up-ending or surprising people (unless it's good-natured surprising).
I thought I knew someone and a while ago I discovered I really didn't and what made it worse was that I WANTED to know that person much better than I did and better than I probably ever will. I really have to stop creating "Mind's Eye" versions of people I know.
So yeah. Sometimes people do things that make you do a double take and... well, I don't really want to do that. To other people. Not on this level, anyway.
Yeah, I...
...yeah.