Wednesdays....
So...I've decided Wednesdays are weird. I don't know if they're good or bad but they are most definitely weird. They get weird because I think that is the one day out of every week that I'm outta tha loop. I mean usually I'm alright when it comes to activities, but not on Wednesdays. On any given day, Wednesdays excluded, I'm the king of any and everything. I know every answer to anything any friend of mine wants to ask me about their life. But, for some reason, I juss seem to be out of it on those nightmarish Wednesdays. I never thought that a day of the week could affect anyone. Especially in the way Wednesdays affect me. I mean, it just feels like I'm being attacked physically,mentally, and emotionally. I don't why I bother trying to help other people, I really don't. It never benefits me, and I have enough problems in my life without worrying about other people's pathetic bullshit. I mean, most people say that my most admirable quality is I'm always trying to make other people happy. I was told quite a few times actually, that when you go through life making other people happy constantly you will more than likely end up forgetting about yourself. Is this why I'm trying to find someone else to put above me in my life?? So that I won't have to work on making myselg happy. Sounds weird, even abnormal; but I don't know how else to put it. I'm constantly searching for someone to put above myself and focus on making them happy so I won't have to go through the strenuous and sometimes tedious vocation of making me happy. I've always thought that if I'm not happy then no one else will be. But if I've gotten this far and haven't made myself happy but made others happy what does that say of modern day philosophies? That they're true until proven false? Or maybe it's that to everyone each saying has a different meaning, until proven the same by that person.WOW!!! I just took an IQ test and it says that it's scientifically accurate. My IQ is 108 and it said I'm an Insigghtful Linguist. Don't know what that means? It means I'm highly intelligent and have the natural fluency of a writer and the visual and spatial strengths of an artist. It also said that those skills contribute to my creative and expressive mind. I wonder if that's true or not. I mean everyone's always told me I was a smart kid but that's what teachers get paid to tell kids who are naturally dumb. Oh well fuck it!