Love-life update

Sep 01, 2007 14:13

    Ryan and I are getting better. We had been having a bit of a bumpy ride for the past month, although, I have to admit, our summer was pretty ragged as well.  He was at his dad's a lot and couldn't talk much because he was spending time with his brother, which made me feel abandoned, which made me bitchy towards him. In return I had been talking to a guy named Cameron all summer which made Ryan feel threatened and then, in the middle of an argument, he dropped the one thing I never thought I would hear: "I don't trust you".'

Now usually I would break up with someone over that little tidbit of information that he has been hiding from me. But with Ryan, I couldn't. I know there is a way to get through to him and gain his trust back but I don't know how. I called all of my guy friends (including Cameron) and told them that we should hold back on talking for awhile. I asked Ryan what I could do as well..... he said he didn't know. And then he apologized. A LOT. The thing is that Ryan doesn't like arguing and fighting with me so when I try to argue with him and point out what he's doing wrong and trying to figure out what's going on, he apologizes. He doesn't know what he's apologizing for but he thinks he should be apologizing so he does. THAT ONLY PISSES ME OFF MORE.

I'm not even going to get into the whole sex issue. No one has the time for that.

For the most part we're doing better, I'm still unbelievably hurt about the trust issue, but I'm healing and hiding that.

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