its gonna be a bad christmas 4 me this year
man i goin through 1 of those problems i went through about 3 years ago where its hard 2 fidn a woman. im pissed off ride now and about over the edge of no return and the last time that happen someone got serioulsy hurt. im tired of people tellin me one thing and they dont follow through with it. im tired of this fuckin place cuz i cant ever seem 2 catch a damn break. i wonder if i actually have a kid out there that i never may have seen cuz she ran off. everything is just getting worse and i cant seem 2 pull through it this time. the dreams of the baby and crystal vance are appearing every night and makeing it harder 4 me 2 sleep and every 1 that i knew that knew her as well r not fuckin helpin me on it. yes i admit i may have blown it off cuz she had a little habbit of lieing to me about certian things but if it was gonna get back 2 everyone i knew especially around a year ago i would have taken it more serious but then again i 17 and imature so what would u expect. i just wanna know 4 christ sakes b4 this gets more out of hand then what i can take it cuz i already did a serch and i may have found her online and if i have 2 ill go the adress just 2 find out this information i cant take it no more i need 2 no right now.