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ok so my life has its ups and downs i admit it. but what can u expect i am bi-polar. but to my point of this fuckin blog i look through my faint memories of the past and i always wish i could go back 2 it cuz this life sux in a way. i miss all my old friends and i miss hanging out with them every day. but then again this is what happens everyone gets older and some tend 2 4get u ever exsist so heres a big FUCK U, 2 the ones who 4get. and then r the ones who go 2 college 2 get farther in life which im happy 4 the ones that do it but then some of them say i should be going to but what i always have 2 explain is there is noway and i mean no fucking way i would pass a normal college class. no fucking way in hell and the reason 4 that is cuz i spent 3rd grade all the way through the end of high school in resorces classes. i didnt even like that, cuz of the fact that i was being picked on by everyone in elementry and by the time i developed a mickey mouse voice and things just got worse. i didnt get another g/f till my sophmore year and the reason they went out with me was cuz of my voice that may be all fine and dandy but, WHY THE FUCK COULDNT YOU JUST GO OUT WITH ME 4 ME AND NOT SOME STUPID VOICE U FUCKIN GIRLS ONLY SAW THAT IN ME THEN U HAD 2 THE MOST FUCKED UP OF ALL. NOT 2 MENTION THE FACT THAT EVERY TIME I GOT THAT STUPID QUESTION WHATS WRONG WITH UR VOICE. FUCK U, U HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH THAT HURT 2 HAVE EVERYBODY ASK ME THAT QUESTION WHEN EVER I MET SOME ONE. THAT BE THE ONLY THING THEESE PEOPLE WOULD NOTICE. FUCKING NARROW MINDED SONS OF BITCHES I DIDNT ASK U QUESTIONS ABOUT O WHY R U SHORT OR WHY R U GAY OR WHY DO FILL THE NEED 2 FUCK WITH SOME BECAUSE THEY DONT LIVE UP 2 UR EXPECTATIONS OF WHAT GROUP THEY SHOULD BE IN. I DONT TAKE SHIT FROM ANYONE, PROVEN FACT. IVE TRIED 2 BE THE NICEST GUY 2 EVERYONE AND SOME PEOPLE JUST THROUGH IT BACK IN MY FACE. well 2 the 1s who through it back in my face heres another big FUCK U. i dont care what anyone things of me i dont care if i still dress like i did in high school if u dont like it tough shit i dont change 4 anyone. not even if u offered me $1,000,000 i wouldnt take it cuz i wouldnt sell out just 2 make some else happy. what i do is what i do and i do it 4 myself. and just because i choose not 2 open up and share my feeling with world doesnt make me a bad person i just dont trust tellin many people about my life or what has happened in the past. no ones bussiness except 4 mine. if i wanna tell u ill tell u when ever i damn well fill like it. u no there are still times where i wish i was ill admit it but u no what u always gotta try 2 look at the positive side in life and move on with what u have good. i dont no what the hell is keeping me alive right now but if there is a reason 4 it i hopes its a good 1. but the minute i finally roll over and die ill be fucking happy cuz i could at least say i had some fun times and then i had some really fuckin bad times but im not gonna think about the bad. and when i die i dont think u should cry cuz i dont think im realy worth the tears but if so do it. then drink a beer 4 me. my bodie has gone through so much 2 the point that i dont think i can handle much more and i should cuz im only 21. and thats still young 2 me. but here will be my last words i speak 4 this blog and if i were 2 die 2day. i fucking love u all.