Hmm...
Sometimes I wonder about what I've been doing with my life, it seems like verything I've done or tried to do is just preparation for the rest of my life. It doesn't seem like anything I do has any kind of instant gratification. Anything I try to do that would give that kind of gratification just blows up in my face. I don't know what to do..
I heard one of the most true statements I've ever heard in my life last night on TV, believe it or not. It was Dennis Leary, on one of his stand up routines, he said, "Happiness comes in small doses, it's a cigarette or a cookie, or a 5 second orgasm." So true, there's no such thing as long term happiness. I think maybe that's just the way it was meant to be for some people. I just don't know why I always end up with the proverbial short end of the stick.
But that's something I'm getting used to, and I'm not gonna let is bother me anymore, because it's not that important to be happy in today's world. The only thing that matters in today's world is how much money you make and what kind of job you have. For people like me, it's hard to get ahead. I'm only 18, but I feel like I'm 40, and I can't shrug off that feeling. I feel like the weight of the world is bearing down on me, and I can't support it. I'm just sick of everyone pressuring me, I'm sick and tired of living up to other people's standards. I'm tired of it, and from now on I'm living for me, not for anyone else. I don't need a girlfriend, I don't need friends, I don't need family, the only person that is gonna matter to me from now is me.
This is Dan, signing out...
I heard one of the most true statements I've ever heard in my life last night on TV, believe it or not. It was Dennis Leary, on one of his stand up routines, he said, "Happiness comes in small doses, it's a cigarette or a cookie, or a 5 second orgasm." So true, there's no such thing as long term happiness. I think maybe that's just the way it was meant to be for some people. I just don't know why I always end up with the proverbial short end of the stick.
But that's something I'm getting used to, and I'm not gonna let is bother me anymore, because it's not that important to be happy in today's world. The only thing that matters in today's world is how much money you make and what kind of job you have. For people like me, it's hard to get ahead. I'm only 18, but I feel like I'm 40, and I can't shrug off that feeling. I feel like the weight of the world is bearing down on me, and I can't support it. I'm just sick of everyone pressuring me, I'm sick and tired of living up to other people's standards. I'm tired of it, and from now on I'm living for me, not for anyone else. I don't need a girlfriend, I don't need friends, I don't need family, the only person that is gonna matter to me from now is me.
This is Dan, signing out...