dont shit where you eat
So, on Friday, I think I made the mother of all fuckups.
Allow me to explain, cuz this is a fuckup on many levels.
First, I slept with a co worker
Second, she might have been seven years younger than me
Third, she just ended a long distance relationship
Four, we were friends outside of work.
Five Alcohol may have been a factor on both parts.
Alright, so now. What to do. My brain is cogent enough to understand the concept of a one night stand. There is a lingering problem of awkwardness. but that will pass shortly. I hope. The real problem is, I don't know how she sees me outside of that. Did this happen cuz there was anything there, or was it just sex? I don't know.
I like her, but I don't know that I would want anything more than this. Having said that, the idea of her going out tomorrow and sleeping with someone else really bothers me. Does that make me a jealous guy? Or does that just make me human?
I have mixed feelings on this whole fiasco, whether I should try and make something of it, or just shove it in the past and pretend it doesn't exist.
I am leaning towards the latter, but know that won't solve anything. However I don't know if I want to solve anything. So there it is.
I am uber confused. Prolly more than her. She at least knows where I stand. I have no idea on her part.
Allow me to explain, cuz this is a fuckup on many levels.
First, I slept with a co worker
Second, she might have been seven years younger than me
Third, she just ended a long distance relationship
Four, we were friends outside of work.
Five Alcohol may have been a factor on both parts.
Alright, so now. What to do. My brain is cogent enough to understand the concept of a one night stand. There is a lingering problem of awkwardness. but that will pass shortly. I hope. The real problem is, I don't know how she sees me outside of that. Did this happen cuz there was anything there, or was it just sex? I don't know.
I like her, but I don't know that I would want anything more than this. Having said that, the idea of her going out tomorrow and sleeping with someone else really bothers me. Does that make me a jealous guy? Or does that just make me human?
I have mixed feelings on this whole fiasco, whether I should try and make something of it, or just shove it in the past and pretend it doesn't exist.
I am leaning towards the latter, but know that won't solve anything. However I don't know if I want to solve anything. So there it is.
I am uber confused. Prolly more than her. She at least knows where I stand. I have no idea on her part.