chaos
To whom it may concern,
My life is in emotional chaos mode right now.
I dont know what to make of my parents, I feel that I should be further ahead in my life right now and i realize that the poor decisions i have made earlier in life have led to this point.
I feel like the harder i try to fix things the more fucked up they become with the exception of my monetary issues.
I want to get out, do something constructive. I want to see the world, I want to find a nice girl who is kind and cheerful and who will make me forget about all the other shit goin on in the background that is constantly occupying my mind.
I want to just... find a deeper meaning to life than what ive seen so far, otherwise i am not totally convinced it is worth continuing. I am not suicidal by a long shot, but im sorely disappointed in the way things seem to be going, the way that people behave, and its driving me slowly insane.
I am like an idealist and a realist coming together to realize that no matter what i know, i know enough to know that i dont know shit... and it bothers me greatly.
So in essence, i just need to find deeper meaning than what ive already discovered (nothing against you tamara). Having said that, i highly doubt i will ever become religious, so please dont any of you put that idea out there, dont waste my time.
SO yeah thats where i stand.
Disappointed...
heh
well, im out. good day all
My life is in emotional chaos mode right now.
I dont know what to make of my parents, I feel that I should be further ahead in my life right now and i realize that the poor decisions i have made earlier in life have led to this point.
I feel like the harder i try to fix things the more fucked up they become with the exception of my monetary issues.
I want to get out, do something constructive. I want to see the world, I want to find a nice girl who is kind and cheerful and who will make me forget about all the other shit goin on in the background that is constantly occupying my mind.
I want to just... find a deeper meaning to life than what ive seen so far, otherwise i am not totally convinced it is worth continuing. I am not suicidal by a long shot, but im sorely disappointed in the way things seem to be going, the way that people behave, and its driving me slowly insane.
I am like an idealist and a realist coming together to realize that no matter what i know, i know enough to know that i dont know shit... and it bothers me greatly.
So in essence, i just need to find deeper meaning than what ive already discovered (nothing against you tamara). Having said that, i highly doubt i will ever become religious, so please dont any of you put that idea out there, dont waste my time.
SO yeah thats where i stand.
Disappointed...
heh
well, im out. good day all