howdy
long time no post. so not lots is new. me and ashley are becoming both more comfortable, and running into other issues. her ex bf is really pissing me off, to the point where i think im gonna give brian five bills to break both his legs or hospitalize him at least. just when she starts to forget about him, leave him in the past, he pops up, calls her, emails her, txts her, and says some crazy hurtful things that drags her down. and really, i can understand her being upset and all, but i wish she would just move on, and it seems like he is holding her back from that. she was with the guy for five and a half years. im just the new guy really. but its frustrating. so right when things are lookin up, BANG. back down again.
work is going slowly. my hours got cut cuz sales are down and i dont make as much at the moment. im kinda pissed but its a rough time of year to be lookin for a new retail job. i think im gonna have to wait till may or june to get in at Dell. that will be cool. starting wage will be 31000 plus about 15 per cent commission which is stupid sick. im excited. that will pay off my student loans in no time. as it is, i recently put over 800 dollars on my visa so thats almost down to where its limit is (cries), and i got a buyer for my car, and a buyer for my AK-74 beta spetznas airsoft gun, so it should be down even more. i really really gotta start saving for the trip to alberta. its gonna be good.
so last night i drank about 14 beer, and played cards with ashley and my parents. she poked me hard playing around, and in my drunken stupour thinking that i was playing around smacked her across the back of the head. apparently with some force (i dont remember any of this but my parents and ashley both swear to it) so i feel like a right jerk right now. i dont think ive ever hit a woman, except once i smacked tamara. i dont remember why but i remember seeing tears in her eyes and that almost made me die. thats not the type of person that i am and i really think i have to assess who i am when i drink and get my shit together. if i hadda left off with just four to six beer i am sure i woulda been socially acceptable and fine. as it was i mixed a glass of wine in there and that totally fucked my stomach for the night so i spent a couple hours prayin to the porceline gods. wasnt pretty. at the end i had to concoct a nasty combination of water vinegar and baking soda to help what was left come out. it was disgusting. works every time though. when your stomach hurts sooo bad and you NEED to throw up, thats the way to do it if you cant force it out on your own just so you are all aware lol.
so yeah, not my finest moment. normally im a happy go lucky drunk who just says stupid things, normally i dont become violent or anything.
on the plus side though we managed to teach ashley how to play euchre. im stoked. such a good simple game thats fun for the 'family'
anyways thats all thats new from this side of things. please dont berate me for what happened, i have already heard enough from others and have been kicking myself all day about it.
so i am outta here, and will talk to ya all later
-Zach
work is going slowly. my hours got cut cuz sales are down and i dont make as much at the moment. im kinda pissed but its a rough time of year to be lookin for a new retail job. i think im gonna have to wait till may or june to get in at Dell. that will be cool. starting wage will be 31000 plus about 15 per cent commission which is stupid sick. im excited. that will pay off my student loans in no time. as it is, i recently put over 800 dollars on my visa so thats almost down to where its limit is (cries), and i got a buyer for my car, and a buyer for my AK-74 beta spetznas airsoft gun, so it should be down even more. i really really gotta start saving for the trip to alberta. its gonna be good.
so last night i drank about 14 beer, and played cards with ashley and my parents. she poked me hard playing around, and in my drunken stupour thinking that i was playing around smacked her across the back of the head. apparently with some force (i dont remember any of this but my parents and ashley both swear to it) so i feel like a right jerk right now. i dont think ive ever hit a woman, except once i smacked tamara. i dont remember why but i remember seeing tears in her eyes and that almost made me die. thats not the type of person that i am and i really think i have to assess who i am when i drink and get my shit together. if i hadda left off with just four to six beer i am sure i woulda been socially acceptable and fine. as it was i mixed a glass of wine in there and that totally fucked my stomach for the night so i spent a couple hours prayin to the porceline gods. wasnt pretty. at the end i had to concoct a nasty combination of water vinegar and baking soda to help what was left come out. it was disgusting. works every time though. when your stomach hurts sooo bad and you NEED to throw up, thats the way to do it if you cant force it out on your own just so you are all aware lol.
so yeah, not my finest moment. normally im a happy go lucky drunk who just says stupid things, normally i dont become violent or anything.
on the plus side though we managed to teach ashley how to play euchre. im stoked. such a good simple game thats fun for the 'family'
anyways thats all thats new from this side of things. please dont berate me for what happened, i have already heard enough from others and have been kicking myself all day about it.
so i am outta here, and will talk to ya all later
-Zach