Happy New Years
Well, New years is quickly approaching and the plans i thought we had in place are startin to fall apart. hopefully the rest of you have everything under control
I dont know whats goin on with me and Ashley, but i like the girl, she seems to like me, she got me a giant maple leafs tin for christmas filled with popcorn. and a maple leafs key chain, which was nice of her.
there is a lot of confusion though, things that we dont talk about and let just rest, and i think its gettin to be about time that we just start talkin, but i dont wanna chase her away.
the last couple days have been rough. She is ... well lets just get straight out with it, shes tryin to quit coke. i know how to pick em i know. lol
so shes been a bit antsy. and craving, and i know how that feels, and it puts me in a position that i dont know how to talk down on someone for their addiction. Ive smoked for almost 8 years now. ive tried quitting, i know what its like, i know the cold sweats, i know the trembling, the shaking, the mood swings, how to i say 'no you cant let that get you down' theres no way around it. i just keep asking her to try and to keep goin, and that thats all i can ask of her, and if she falls off the wagon... well, i dont know what i will do then, but it wont be pleasant. i havent told her that really. i told her if it becomes an issue im not stickin around but i didnt clarify what an issue is. i just dont want her to do it at all...
so theres that.
the other issue is that she keeps in pretty regular contact with her ex. (not rob lol)
i dont mind if they chat, or whatever, cuz they were together for four years, but she goes on about how she hates what he did to her, how they broke up, etc, and the circumstances, and at the same time, they talk, and then she occasionally gets lifts with the guy (like today) and i just shake my head. i dont get it, my brain has alarm bells goin off like crazy but at the same time im attached to her, and i dont wanna really let her go, so im tryin to think of a way to bring it up that wont chase her away, and that will satisfy my curiosity, and my concerns, and set things straight... either im a rebound, or im somethin to her and she has to change her ways, and i dont know which way that one will swing, so that kinda bothers me.
bah, women are confusing.
so she is supposed to call me soon, and i gotta get my thoughts organized. good night
-Zach
I dont know whats goin on with me and Ashley, but i like the girl, she seems to like me, she got me a giant maple leafs tin for christmas filled with popcorn. and a maple leafs key chain, which was nice of her.
there is a lot of confusion though, things that we dont talk about and let just rest, and i think its gettin to be about time that we just start talkin, but i dont wanna chase her away.
the last couple days have been rough. She is ... well lets just get straight out with it, shes tryin to quit coke. i know how to pick em i know. lol
so shes been a bit antsy. and craving, and i know how that feels, and it puts me in a position that i dont know how to talk down on someone for their addiction. Ive smoked for almost 8 years now. ive tried quitting, i know what its like, i know the cold sweats, i know the trembling, the shaking, the mood swings, how to i say 'no you cant let that get you down' theres no way around it. i just keep asking her to try and to keep goin, and that thats all i can ask of her, and if she falls off the wagon... well, i dont know what i will do then, but it wont be pleasant. i havent told her that really. i told her if it becomes an issue im not stickin around but i didnt clarify what an issue is. i just dont want her to do it at all...
so theres that.
the other issue is that she keeps in pretty regular contact with her ex. (not rob lol)
i dont mind if they chat, or whatever, cuz they were together for four years, but she goes on about how she hates what he did to her, how they broke up, etc, and the circumstances, and at the same time, they talk, and then she occasionally gets lifts with the guy (like today) and i just shake my head. i dont get it, my brain has alarm bells goin off like crazy but at the same time im attached to her, and i dont wanna really let her go, so im tryin to think of a way to bring it up that wont chase her away, and that will satisfy my curiosity, and my concerns, and set things straight... either im a rebound, or im somethin to her and she has to change her ways, and i dont know which way that one will swing, so that kinda bothers me.
bah, women are confusing.
so she is supposed to call me soon, and i gotta get my thoughts organized. good night
-Zach