On Love and Religion
Well today I think I might go for a personal, less vague entry. Seeing as how I haven't updated this thing for real in quite a while, I think you deserve it, oh Journal.
Well I've been kind of a little down lately about my love life, or lack thereof. Mainly just because so many of my friends lately have been pretty well off relationship-wise, and I guess sometimes I get a little jealous. I mean, I know there are always different things I could do to meet more girls, ie be more active, gather up a little courage to go talk to a random girl walking around, so I probably deserve most of what I have so far, but I don't know, I just kind of want somebody to love and actually be able to return the feelings. I've had so many best friends/ friends who happen to be girls who either (1) are taken, (2) don't want to date me or (3) I just only like as a friend, that I kind of wonder... am I doing something wrong? or am I just actually getting really unlucky? I do enjoy having girls as friends/best friends/etc. but at the same time it's a constant reminder of how it seems most girls just want to be friends with me rather than date me.
Ironically though, I've noticed a correlation between the amount of loneliness I've been having lately and the amount of time I've given God. Ever since I've come to Dallas, my worship status has been next to none, as I'm not too keen on going to an organization (like a Christian one) by myself, as I kind of prefer to have at least one person there I know. So I haven't done anything like that, and I've noticed an absent of God in my life, and I saw Him slipping away but I didn't do anything about it. I'm not normally an extremely religious person (ie, I usually avoid the topic of religion and I haven't been to a formal church service since like 8th grade) but right now I'm not sure where else to turn. So I decided to start making an effort to making God a bigger part of my life than he is right now (which is next to none), by either going to church, praying, reading the bible.. I'm not sure, just anything.
I'm thinking maybe this loneliness is being caused by my recent lack of faith, but being fueled by random events involving liking someone, being jealous of friend's relationship etc. Maybe with more religion I'll be happier, and because I'm happier I will do better in relationships and maybe even meet someone. I'm hoping God will be able to point me in the righ direction of all this, as right now I'm kind of lost.
But don't worry, I'll be fine; I'm just venting it out
Other things to note is that I almost got kicked out of my apartment last week, came home from spring break to an eviction notice, talked to the apartment people though and they said that I could stay. Found a one bedroom and two people to take over my lease though, so i'll be moving into that by the end of the month.
Ooo it's gonna be a crazy late march *buckles his safety chair*
What? You better not make fun of my saftey chair.
Well I've been kind of a little down lately about my love life, or lack thereof. Mainly just because so many of my friends lately have been pretty well off relationship-wise, and I guess sometimes I get a little jealous. I mean, I know there are always different things I could do to meet more girls, ie be more active, gather up a little courage to go talk to a random girl walking around, so I probably deserve most of what I have so far, but I don't know, I just kind of want somebody to love and actually be able to return the feelings. I've had so many best friends/ friends who happen to be girls who either (1) are taken, (2) don't want to date me or (3) I just only like as a friend, that I kind of wonder... am I doing something wrong? or am I just actually getting really unlucky? I do enjoy having girls as friends/best friends/etc. but at the same time it's a constant reminder of how it seems most girls just want to be friends with me rather than date me.
Ironically though, I've noticed a correlation between the amount of loneliness I've been having lately and the amount of time I've given God. Ever since I've come to Dallas, my worship status has been next to none, as I'm not too keen on going to an organization (like a Christian one) by myself, as I kind of prefer to have at least one person there I know. So I haven't done anything like that, and I've noticed an absent of God in my life, and I saw Him slipping away but I didn't do anything about it. I'm not normally an extremely religious person (ie, I usually avoid the topic of religion and I haven't been to a formal church service since like 8th grade) but right now I'm not sure where else to turn. So I decided to start making an effort to making God a bigger part of my life than he is right now (which is next to none), by either going to church, praying, reading the bible.. I'm not sure, just anything.
I'm thinking maybe this loneliness is being caused by my recent lack of faith, but being fueled by random events involving liking someone, being jealous of friend's relationship etc. Maybe with more religion I'll be happier, and because I'm happier I will do better in relationships and maybe even meet someone. I'm hoping God will be able to point me in the righ direction of all this, as right now I'm kind of lost.
But don't worry, I'll be fine; I'm just venting it out
Other things to note is that I almost got kicked out of my apartment last week, came home from spring break to an eviction notice, talked to the apartment people though and they said that I could stay. Found a one bedroom and two people to take over my lease though, so i'll be moving into that by the end of the month.
Ooo it's gonna be a crazy late march *buckles his safety chair*
What? You better not make fun of my saftey chair.