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Hmmm.
New sister......How am I supposed to feel? It's almost liking living in the neighborhood you grew up in for like 17 years and then all the sudden you move. I'm usually good when it comes to adapting to my surroundings, but this is different, I have a freaking sister..... And I've been interacting with alot of people over the past few days in very angry ways....
Well I don't really mean all those things I say... I've just been under tremendous amounts of anxiaty lately... and I'm sure everyone knows how THAT can get.
It's just really weird, almost like I finally have someone that I can be like, a role model to, someone I can teach things like how to make big rich grilled cheese.... and how to make orange cream milkshakes at McDonalds....
But in the same sense, I fear responsibility, but not in the sense that I don't like it, I just am always afraid of messing something up, losing something or someone I care about. Like I posted about earlier, I haven't really put any thought into the changes that this house will undergo as of TODAY (Yeah shes coming home today and I most likely will be at work..... don't you just fucking love it). And all of the sudden, I get a call on new years eve saying I have a new sister..... wasn't ready for that one..... in fact, I don't think I ever was.
But who knows? Maybe this change will be for the better? Maybe I'll finally have someone to actuallt feel like is part of me? And maybe it might even teach me to be more responsable and actually get going in life?
Only time will tell
For now, all I can say is
"Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping"
I love all you guys
New sister......How am I supposed to feel? It's almost liking living in the neighborhood you grew up in for like 17 years and then all the sudden you move. I'm usually good when it comes to adapting to my surroundings, but this is different, I have a freaking sister..... And I've been interacting with alot of people over the past few days in very angry ways....
Well I don't really mean all those things I say... I've just been under tremendous amounts of anxiaty lately... and I'm sure everyone knows how THAT can get.
It's just really weird, almost like I finally have someone that I can be like, a role model to, someone I can teach things like how to make big rich grilled cheese.... and how to make orange cream milkshakes at McDonalds....
But in the same sense, I fear responsibility, but not in the sense that I don't like it, I just am always afraid of messing something up, losing something or someone I care about. Like I posted about earlier, I haven't really put any thought into the changes that this house will undergo as of TODAY (Yeah shes coming home today and I most likely will be at work..... don't you just fucking love it). And all of the sudden, I get a call on new years eve saying I have a new sister..... wasn't ready for that one..... in fact, I don't think I ever was.
But who knows? Maybe this change will be for the better? Maybe I'll finally have someone to actuallt feel like is part of me? And maybe it might even teach me to be more responsable and actually get going in life?
Only time will tell
For now, all I can say is
"Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping"
I love all you guys