(Untitled)

[metabolic666]

last summer made me stronger than fucking oak. i will not put this car in reverse. fucking nobody is taking my pride away. all this bullshit, this black cloud, it is not allowed to stay. not to mention the fact that it is not my fault.

it has never been my fault.

Comments

[x3figment]

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[metabolic666]

tired of it. Of the whole scenario. Putting my heart back on the line time and time again because of promises made. I'm way too trustworthy for my own good. I didn't think these thoughts or problems would be possible from 5,000 miles away. all I wanted was just a few hints here and there that I am going to come back home to the same person....and it was happening, it was moving, it was promised...up until like two weeks ago.

yeah, yeah, everyone is tired of hearing about it. so am I. But this is my life, and I love and have loved......I pay for this love, for trying to believe.

at least I believe?

[metabolic666]

funny this all sounds like what Carly used to write in her livejournal more than 5 years ago when I used to be friend with her on this thing.

hence, not my fault.