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I woke up this morning feeling that I had mislaid something. My mind was clawing at my memory, trying to remember something it had forgotten on purpose: a dream that was important, but with implications that made it important for me to forget.
I’ve been thinking about life after high school a lot lately. It seems so far away, but also seems so urgent. Part of me really wants a plan for my life, and the other part knows that it’s useless to have a plan. The Lord is going to take me where he wants me to go, and I just need to be open to hearing His call, and I think having a plan that is set in stone causes deafness. As of right now, I’d like to dual major in justice studies and religious studies with an emphasis on Christianity. I know that studying religion at a secular university will be very testing for my faith, but I think it will prepare me really well for ministry, just in the sense that I will have to genuinely believe in what I say I believe in, and an academic understanding of faith will make me a much stronger tool for the Lord. It’s all kinda weird to think about, but it’s all very exciting.