sometimes i want to change myself

[mestupdiflvr]

im sure everyone's always wanted to be someone else. but at night lately. i feel shitty. laying in bed thinking about every single thing possible. its horrible. i think about what a bad person i am, a bad friend, a bad daughter, sister, cousin, whatever. my chest just started to tighten up and get hot. blagh. i dont like this at all. im hoping to party tonight. oh yeah. party! spring break is a week away. we're going to listen to ghetto music all night tonight. listen to the usher "yeah" remix. because you will laugh your ass off. well i did in health class

everytime im in the car. i know "yeah" will be on. and it always is. like this morning :-) god im so talented. you know?! i know.

but yeah im sorry to you