Jul 31, 2003 22:52
As I sail amongst the clouds, I think to myself this could be heaven or this could be hell. How does one know where he or she in the global perspective? The only way to truly know is to look inside oneself. Look at what’s going on in his or her life. The people around and involved in their life. Ask important, but simple, questions to people who you think know you the best. And most importantly, be open-minded. Trust in yourself and in others.
What you make of the world decides if you are living in a self proclaimed heaven or hell. Enjoy each day as if it is your first day. Get out there and explore this newly discovered universe. Meet people and try new and unfamiliar adventures. Why live your day as if it is your last day? With that mind set, you’ll be trying to live your life in a few days rather than in a lifetime.
Most of you know my most unfamiliar adventure is romantic relationships. I don’t know if I’m looking for one particular person or trying to make something into something it’s not with a close friend. I’ve ask myself that a half a trillion times throughout college. I still don’t have an answer in the horizon. My problem is not commitment. I tell myself “I want to be in a relationship.” “I want to get married and to have children.” Is that wrong? Am I going to fast for these thoughts?
I am interested in someone. She, I believe, is interested in me. Her name is Jennifer. She’s 27, divorced and has a 3 year old kid. The fact that she’s divorced and has a child doesn’t bother me. What bothers me is the potential of jumping to quickly. Me not her. I’ve been out with her a few times, all in a group environment. My friends who have met her get along with her great. She is out going, while I keep my mouth shut. In that way, we are the perfect opposites. All I can say is we’ll see where it leads.
In the professional world, it seems I will be making a choice in a year or so, whether to stay with Heat and Control, Inc or move one. I wish to move up into the Research and Development team within their Engineering department. Here is where the dilemma is. I don’t want to move away from my friends and family. That’s precisely what I’d be doing if I moved up with Heat and Control. My current position as Service Representative is not fulfilling. It is nice to see the USA, rather the Airports. Most of the time, I barely see the town I visit. I’m either to tired or not there long enough to enjoy it. If I do decide to leave Heat and Control in a year I’ll probably stay in the Food Industry. I look for Assistant Project Manager Positions. As of right now it’s still up on the air.