josh ---JOSH
It's over. Done. Finished.
Well, of course it's not completely finished. I want to write him a letter, something tangible he can hold and see and hopefully understand.
And one day I hope to see him and hold him and laugh with him again.
I can't believe I did this. I told him it wasn't going to happen. I don't think it CAN. And so I had to let him go. He's unhappy, and he may not think this will help, but now he can go about the task of moving on. I told him he knew how to get in touch with me if he ever desired. Then I said goodbye.
I'm not sure how I feel. For a bit I felt a kind of liberation. It wasn't a planned move and I didn't want to do it, but I don't know what to say to him anymore, I can't make him feel better and I was frustrated. But now -I'm feeling hollow.
I don't want to lose him. He is a part of me. I hope he will come back to me one day, and that he will be whole. I can't do this.....
Well, of course it's not completely finished. I want to write him a letter, something tangible he can hold and see and hopefully understand.
And one day I hope to see him and hold him and laugh with him again.
I can't believe I did this. I told him it wasn't going to happen. I don't think it CAN. And so I had to let him go. He's unhappy, and he may not think this will help, but now he can go about the task of moving on. I told him he knew how to get in touch with me if he ever desired. Then I said goodbye.
I'm not sure how I feel. For a bit I felt a kind of liberation. It wasn't a planned move and I didn't want to do it, but I don't know what to say to him anymore, I can't make him feel better and I was frustrated. But now -I'm feeling hollow.
I don't want to lose him. He is a part of me. I hope he will come back to me one day, and that he will be whole. I can't do this.....