Day to day
Other stuff that isn't super interesting, but I want to keep track of for my own rememberance..
Nick's mum had us over for a BBQ on Sunday night. It's funny how all the parents seem to want to have a chance to feed and entertain the Canadians. It's absolutely incredible how friendly and generous Australians are, it's something I need to work on being better at myself. It was great to have a (free) home cooked meal, and fun to hang out with Nick and Karyna, but jeepers creepers was his mom ever annoying! She had a whiny, scratchy voice and would NOT SHUT UP. "Nick don't over cook the meat," "Nick, make sure the chicken is cooked properly," "Nick, you need to remember to clean the barbecue," and on and on and on. She was lively and friendly, but totally needed to take it down about 17 notches. More than once Nick was all, "Mom, shut the hell up and chill out!" and I didn't blame him one bit!!
One morning when Maclean and I were down at Bather's Beach we saw dolphins swimming in the bay. I was reading and Mike goes, "Shark! I just saw a fin!!" Funny. It was a dolphin though, two of them actually, a mother and baby. They swam laps across the bay the entire time we were there, a couple of hours. It was cool to watch them. The first time Mike had ever seen dolphins in the wild. Such beautiful creatures.
Valentine's Day Maclean and I bought some red and hot pink card and made a card for Jade. Gotta love arts and crafts afternoons! It was pretty fun, cutting out shapes and gluing them down. We took it over to Jade at work. We weren't going to go for dinner, but after walking downtown we decided to go get some chili mussels. It was nice, sitting outside at the harbour, right on the water, refreshing and relaxing and lovely. Then we went to the arcade and played a bunch of games together! That's totally not my thing, but it was fun to go and play and be with Mike. A very random but fantastic day. Back at the apartment we put all the pictures from when Mike joined us onto his computer, then went through and looked at them. Pretty fun. And yes, we took the opportunity - as we do every time Jade's at work - to make love a couple of times in the afternoon. *heart*
The past two mornings Jade and I have gone down to the beach. It's nice to get down there, swim, throw our new Waboba back and forth (a squishy ball that floats and bounces), and read. This morning we even figured out that jogging through waist deep water is a serious workout! Apparently just tossing a stupid ball is workout enough for me, since my arms are sore!!!
Mike left for Thailand Wednesday night. He had a long journey ahead of him and while I know he's excited to see his friends and party party party, I asked him to let me know that he arrived safely. He was supposed to arrive on Koh Phangan Thursday night (which he did) but I only just heard from him now - it's Friday evening! It took him a full day to let me know that he'd arrived. So inconsiderate. He says the beach is amazing and that Jade and I would love it, but not once has he said "I wish you were coming" or "I wish you were here." And I really really feel like he's glad that I'm not there. Which sucks.
A few days ago we were in the apartment and for whatever reason I said, "We should go to Vegas." My brother lives there and Mike's never been, and I know he wants to go. His response was a funny look and then, "But we don't want to do the same things there." "What do you want to do?" "Drink and gamble." Right. So he doesn't want to go to Vegas with me. He's glad I'm not in Koh Phangan. What exactly DOES he want to do with me? Other than toss me around his bed? I'm beginning to think that the bedroom really is our only compatible arena, and as much as I enjoy that, it sucks to not want to share more things together.
My stomach is in knots and I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with the next 4-6 weeks, not knowing what's going on in Mike's head, not knowing whether or not he wants me, or what he's going to say. And I fully realize the irony of the situation. 4 months ago we broke up, but proceeded to have a really great month together before I left. Now, things got really messy and he basically broke up with me, only for us to turn around and enjoy our remaining time together, and now he's gone and left with me not knowing where we're at and having to wait for him to decide. I can't be that pissed because I just did nearly the exact same thing to him, but it still sucks man.
And partially because of that, Jade and I have decided to go home early. Right now we're scheduled to return to Calgary on March 30, but we're going to try and push it up to March 15. Gives us less time sitting and doing practically nothing here, and gets me back sooner so I can figure out my life and get moving forward (or on). Mike will be home at the beginning of March, so he'll have two weeks to sort out what's going on with work, and to sort out his feelings for me, and then I want to sit down together and decide whether we're going to be life partners, or whether we're moving in separate directions.
Stressful. I'm still not 100% convinced that Mike is the best match for me, but I love him, he's a good man, we do have fun together when we're both being considerate, and we've made a lot of progress. I think we could be a good team and have a good life. So if he tells me he wants to do this then I'm going to go for it. No more ambiguity, no more questions, no more inner turmoil, I'm throwing myself in and making it happen. That being says, if he decides we're better off apart then I'll be sad but it will be a relief to have some finality, and I'll move on with my life.
Nick messaged me today and told me that his girlfriend is super pissed that I'm coming to visit and doesn't want him to see me. He's going to see me anyway, but felt it necessary to state that it was only as friends. Yeah Nick, I know.
*sigh*
Nick's mum had us over for a BBQ on Sunday night. It's funny how all the parents seem to want to have a chance to feed and entertain the Canadians. It's absolutely incredible how friendly and generous Australians are, it's something I need to work on being better at myself. It was great to have a (free) home cooked meal, and fun to hang out with Nick and Karyna, but jeepers creepers was his mom ever annoying! She had a whiny, scratchy voice and would NOT SHUT UP. "Nick don't over cook the meat," "Nick, make sure the chicken is cooked properly," "Nick, you need to remember to clean the barbecue," and on and on and on. She was lively and friendly, but totally needed to take it down about 17 notches. More than once Nick was all, "Mom, shut the hell up and chill out!" and I didn't blame him one bit!!
One morning when Maclean and I were down at Bather's Beach we saw dolphins swimming in the bay. I was reading and Mike goes, "Shark! I just saw a fin!!" Funny. It was a dolphin though, two of them actually, a mother and baby. They swam laps across the bay the entire time we were there, a couple of hours. It was cool to watch them. The first time Mike had ever seen dolphins in the wild. Such beautiful creatures.
Valentine's Day Maclean and I bought some red and hot pink card and made a card for Jade. Gotta love arts and crafts afternoons! It was pretty fun, cutting out shapes and gluing them down. We took it over to Jade at work. We weren't going to go for dinner, but after walking downtown we decided to go get some chili mussels. It was nice, sitting outside at the harbour, right on the water, refreshing and relaxing and lovely. Then we went to the arcade and played a bunch of games together! That's totally not my thing, but it was fun to go and play and be with Mike. A very random but fantastic day. Back at the apartment we put all the pictures from when Mike joined us onto his computer, then went through and looked at them. Pretty fun. And yes, we took the opportunity - as we do every time Jade's at work - to make love a couple of times in the afternoon. *heart*
The past two mornings Jade and I have gone down to the beach. It's nice to get down there, swim, throw our new Waboba back and forth (a squishy ball that floats and bounces), and read. This morning we even figured out that jogging through waist deep water is a serious workout! Apparently just tossing a stupid ball is workout enough for me, since my arms are sore!!!
Mike left for Thailand Wednesday night. He had a long journey ahead of him and while I know he's excited to see his friends and party party party, I asked him to let me know that he arrived safely. He was supposed to arrive on Koh Phangan Thursday night (which he did) but I only just heard from him now - it's Friday evening! It took him a full day to let me know that he'd arrived. So inconsiderate. He says the beach is amazing and that Jade and I would love it, but not once has he said "I wish you were coming" or "I wish you were here." And I really really feel like he's glad that I'm not there. Which sucks.
A few days ago we were in the apartment and for whatever reason I said, "We should go to Vegas." My brother lives there and Mike's never been, and I know he wants to go. His response was a funny look and then, "But we don't want to do the same things there." "What do you want to do?" "Drink and gamble." Right. So he doesn't want to go to Vegas with me. He's glad I'm not in Koh Phangan. What exactly DOES he want to do with me? Other than toss me around his bed? I'm beginning to think that the bedroom really is our only compatible arena, and as much as I enjoy that, it sucks to not want to share more things together.
My stomach is in knots and I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with the next 4-6 weeks, not knowing what's going on in Mike's head, not knowing whether or not he wants me, or what he's going to say. And I fully realize the irony of the situation. 4 months ago we broke up, but proceeded to have a really great month together before I left. Now, things got really messy and he basically broke up with me, only for us to turn around and enjoy our remaining time together, and now he's gone and left with me not knowing where we're at and having to wait for him to decide. I can't be that pissed because I just did nearly the exact same thing to him, but it still sucks man.
And partially because of that, Jade and I have decided to go home early. Right now we're scheduled to return to Calgary on March 30, but we're going to try and push it up to March 15. Gives us less time sitting and doing practically nothing here, and gets me back sooner so I can figure out my life and get moving forward (or on). Mike will be home at the beginning of March, so he'll have two weeks to sort out what's going on with work, and to sort out his feelings for me, and then I want to sit down together and decide whether we're going to be life partners, or whether we're moving in separate directions.
Stressful. I'm still not 100% convinced that Mike is the best match for me, but I love him, he's a good man, we do have fun together when we're both being considerate, and we've made a lot of progress. I think we could be a good team and have a good life. So if he tells me he wants to do this then I'm going to go for it. No more ambiguity, no more questions, no more inner turmoil, I'm throwing myself in and making it happen. That being says, if he decides we're better off apart then I'll be sad but it will be a relief to have some finality, and I'll move on with my life.
Nick messaged me today and told me that his girlfriend is super pissed that I'm coming to visit and doesn't want him to see me. He's going to see me anyway, but felt it necessary to state that it was only as friends. Yeah Nick, I know.
*sigh*