Balancing Act
I asked my parents what they think of Mike:
Hi honey,
Well, this is mom speaking, dad can write for himself:) Thanks for asking, McKinnley, I'd love to tell you how I feel about Mike! I like him! There is something very good about his heart. I can feel he is a good soul. I like his laugh and good sense of humor, it makes me smile! I like that he was willing to help his parents with their build--that says something about his commitment to family and his love for his parents. We appreciated his willingness to help us, he could have been too busy or occupied with something else but he was a good sport. That says something about his character. When we played Cattan and you were impatient with me and he was doubly patient with my questions and indecision, he made a comment that was interesting. He said, I guess it's hard to been patient with people you know well, I guess I'm impatient with my family too in different situations. I think that insight compliments your personality, you both seem to have a softening touch on each other. I'm guessing you are kind and forgiving of Mike's parents faults that irritate him and he seems to be with us. I have seen a balancing of your reactions to people and situations since Mike has been in your life. He seems to bring out an even lovelier you. I appreciate the gift that that is, to care for someone enough to encourage them just by your love, to be the best that they can be. I don't know Mike very well to sit and chat with him and talk about things that really matter, but for whatever the weaknesses and character flaws he may have, as we all have plenty of, I know I could wrap my arms around him and love him as one of my own!
I really think I'm going to go back to him. I've been thinking about it so much over the past few days, and honestly I think it comes down to I don't want to live without him. I really believe life would be good with either Nick or Mike. I hate to not give Nick and I more of a shot, but since I made my decision the stress has been lifted and I feel really at peace with it. That's a good sign, right? I was planning to phone Mike today, but of course as soon as I sat down to call the anxiety kicked in... that's simply because I have major commitment issues though and I get major anxiety before I commit to anything.
Jade thinks I should choose Mike. My friends love him. My parents (well, at least my mom) likes him. My family likes him. And I love him.
I can picture myself hanging out with Nick. I can see us having a lot of fun together. But I just don't see us as lovers. I see us as comfortable companions. Which is a good thing, and maybe in the end would make for a more stable relationship, but where's the excitement in that?
With Mike I have companionship of a different sort. There's passion. And where there's passion there's volatility, but I think I'm prepared to deal with that. It will take some work, but I can picture the adventure, and I like what I see. We may not be as good of friends, but we are better lovers and I believe we'd be better partners than Nick and I. Balance, right? I'm all about it, so much that I have my yin yang tattooed inside my wrist where I can see it every day. And you don't get balance when both partners are the same.
On that note, I think I have a phone call to make after all..
Hi honey,
Well, this is mom speaking, dad can write for himself:) Thanks for asking, McKinnley, I'd love to tell you how I feel about Mike! I like him! There is something very good about his heart. I can feel he is a good soul. I like his laugh and good sense of humor, it makes me smile! I like that he was willing to help his parents with their build--that says something about his commitment to family and his love for his parents. We appreciated his willingness to help us, he could have been too busy or occupied with something else but he was a good sport. That says something about his character. When we played Cattan and you were impatient with me and he was doubly patient with my questions and indecision, he made a comment that was interesting. He said, I guess it's hard to been patient with people you know well, I guess I'm impatient with my family too in different situations. I think that insight compliments your personality, you both seem to have a softening touch on each other. I'm guessing you are kind and forgiving of Mike's parents faults that irritate him and he seems to be with us. I have seen a balancing of your reactions to people and situations since Mike has been in your life. He seems to bring out an even lovelier you. I appreciate the gift that that is, to care for someone enough to encourage them just by your love, to be the best that they can be. I don't know Mike very well to sit and chat with him and talk about things that really matter, but for whatever the weaknesses and character flaws he may have, as we all have plenty of, I know I could wrap my arms around him and love him as one of my own!
I really think I'm going to go back to him. I've been thinking about it so much over the past few days, and honestly I think it comes down to I don't want to live without him. I really believe life would be good with either Nick or Mike. I hate to not give Nick and I more of a shot, but since I made my decision the stress has been lifted and I feel really at peace with it. That's a good sign, right? I was planning to phone Mike today, but of course as soon as I sat down to call the anxiety kicked in... that's simply because I have major commitment issues though and I get major anxiety before I commit to anything.
Jade thinks I should choose Mike. My friends love him. My parents (well, at least my mom) likes him. My family likes him. And I love him.
I can picture myself hanging out with Nick. I can see us having a lot of fun together. But I just don't see us as lovers. I see us as comfortable companions. Which is a good thing, and maybe in the end would make for a more stable relationship, but where's the excitement in that?
With Mike I have companionship of a different sort. There's passion. And where there's passion there's volatility, but I think I'm prepared to deal with that. It will take some work, but I can picture the adventure, and I like what I see. We may not be as good of friends, but we are better lovers and I believe we'd be better partners than Nick and I. Balance, right? I'm all about it, so much that I have my yin yang tattooed inside my wrist where I can see it every day. And you don't get balance when both partners are the same.
On that note, I think I have a phone call to make after all..