It's been awhile
It's been awhile since I've written here. I really wanted to write last night, but I was nowhere near a computer.
It's been awhile since I've slept in my bed -alone. I'm all alone right now, no flatmates here, not even Luke. And it's dark and windy and scary outside and very cold in here. I should have gone to bed ages ago because I have to work early, but I keep getting stuck.
It's been awhile since I've had any interesting news about boys. Which is ok. My life tends to revolve around boys far far too often. Adam still makes me all fluttery inside. But I haven't seen or talked to him outside of work in weeks. He thinks I'm "a bit of hard work." And he doesn't even know the half of it. Matt and I are pretty much together. We finally had a big old chat for the first time in a month. We cleared the air, and later that night were in the shower together. That was a bit extreme, but not long after that we started sleeping together, and like I said, it's been awhile since I've slept alone. I'm not sure how I feel about him and I though. It's good, better than I thought we would be together actually. We have had surprisingly little conflict, and he can be surprisingly cute. But last night when we were in bed I realized that the music that was playing was having more of an effect on me than Matt was. Hmmmm... Today he got really mad at me because Becs and I showed up at the pub and he and his friends were there and I promptly became very grumpy. He said it was obvious to him and to everyone else there that I didn't want to see Matt and that was why I was grumpy. That wasn't really it, I was just... grumpy. I don't know. But I do know that I feel bad. I'm a horrible girlfriend, I always have been.
Anyway, there's creepy tree brances tapping on the window and I'm getting SCARED.
It's been awhile since I've slept in my bed -alone. I'm all alone right now, no flatmates here, not even Luke. And it's dark and windy and scary outside and very cold in here. I should have gone to bed ages ago because I have to work early, but I keep getting stuck.
It's been awhile since I've had any interesting news about boys. Which is ok. My life tends to revolve around boys far far too often. Adam still makes me all fluttery inside. But I haven't seen or talked to him outside of work in weeks. He thinks I'm "a bit of hard work." And he doesn't even know the half of it. Matt and I are pretty much together. We finally had a big old chat for the first time in a month. We cleared the air, and later that night were in the shower together. That was a bit extreme, but not long after that we started sleeping together, and like I said, it's been awhile since I've slept alone. I'm not sure how I feel about him and I though. It's good, better than I thought we would be together actually. We have had surprisingly little conflict, and he can be surprisingly cute. But last night when we were in bed I realized that the music that was playing was having more of an effect on me than Matt was. Hmmmm... Today he got really mad at me because Becs and I showed up at the pub and he and his friends were there and I promptly became very grumpy. He said it was obvious to him and to everyone else there that I didn't want to see Matt and that was why I was grumpy. That wasn't really it, I was just... grumpy. I don't know. But I do know that I feel bad. I'm a horrible girlfriend, I always have been.
Anyway, there's creepy tree brances tapping on the window and I'm getting SCARED.