These are the days of our lives
Saw "Sex and the City" tonight. It was fun and heart-breaking and entertaining and I thoroughly enjoyed it. However, as we left the theatre I vehemently proclaimed, "I do NOT want to be in my 40's and still dating!" To which my sister's friend replied, "I don't want to be 30 and still dating!" Damn. Me neither. But since I only have 4 1/2 months to go..... The friend -after somewhat putting her foot in her mouth- tried to placate me by suggesting that perhaps I'll "find a Dante in Spain to spend my 30th birthday with." I suppose I'll take what I can get.
Speaking of which, a fling from last summer randomly messaged me after we haven't spoken since then. Telling me how he still thinks about this one night we had together, how it's been distracting him from his work, and how he wonders what might have happened. The night in question was one spent making out on his couch. And yeah, it was hot enough to be lodged in the memory banks for quite some time. But I don't know if I really want to go there again.
*sigh*
A breakdown:
Talupa and I have started something. I don't know what, but something.
Kiddo is new on the scene, but persistent, and intriguing.
Punkin is still in touch although I haven't seen him in awhile. He's definitely been relegated to "friend" status after his 2 minute stunt... but he does have a hot roommate.
Lucky never initiates, but he responds with vigour when I do. Well, he responds to texts and conversations anyway, not so much "vigour" in person. I've decided not to phone him again, to wait and see if he ever gets around to calling me. There's something about him that I really enjoy... which means there's a good chance I'll phone him when I'm drunk this weekend.
Pretty Face has kind of fallen by the way side, which is a crying shame since I reeeeeeeally wanted to let his fine 21 year old cockiness prove a point.
Model Boy has reinstated himself on this list, somehow. Apparently he's single again.. and that night WAS fun..
My Ray of Sunshine has moved west. Which is fantastic for him, and probably for us. I adore him. He's beautiful and unique and heart-wrenchingly sweet. But he also can make me furious with a single word. Falling into bed with him -again- would have been easy, but it would have ruined us.
Then there's my Breath of Fresh Air, who rejuvenates me whenever we cross paths, but also takes a tiny piece of my heart with him when he leaves -and leave he does. He'll be here on the 20th. In for the show, out again afterwards. Damn those musicians. I hope they at least stay the night in town, it would be nice to spend more than a couple of hours with him.
Talupa
Kiddo
Punkin
Lucky
Pretty Face
Model Boy
Sunshine
Fresh
It has potential to be a busy couple of weeks.
And V. My sweet sweet V. Who is now living the life in Toronto that I so desperately wanted to live with him. He's coming out here for a visit at some point in the near future. I want to drag him into my bed and never let him leave, but at the same point I already gave him 3 years of my life and although it definitely wasn't a waste I don't know if I'm willing to give him any more, because I just don't think it can work, no matter how much both of us would like it to. I can't believe we've been apart for a year.
V
I miss his dreds, but he's still frickin' beautiful.
The thing is, I'm not really that interested or excited about any of them. Why is it so hard to find a man that I WANT? That I'm attracted to and excited about and can potentially see some sort of future with? I thought there might be potential with Ken-Leigh, but he went and crossed himself off the list without even giving me a chance.
I could write a soap opera / sitcom about my life. I swear.
Speaking of which, a fling from last summer randomly messaged me after we haven't spoken since then. Telling me how he still thinks about this one night we had together, how it's been distracting him from his work, and how he wonders what might have happened. The night in question was one spent making out on his couch. And yeah, it was hot enough to be lodged in the memory banks for quite some time. But I don't know if I really want to go there again.
*sigh*
A breakdown:
Talupa and I have started something. I don't know what, but something.
Kiddo is new on the scene, but persistent, and intriguing.
Punkin is still in touch although I haven't seen him in awhile. He's definitely been relegated to "friend" status after his 2 minute stunt... but he does have a hot roommate.
Lucky never initiates, but he responds with vigour when I do. Well, he responds to texts and conversations anyway, not so much "vigour" in person. I've decided not to phone him again, to wait and see if he ever gets around to calling me. There's something about him that I really enjoy... which means there's a good chance I'll phone him when I'm drunk this weekend.
Pretty Face has kind of fallen by the way side, which is a crying shame since I reeeeeeeally wanted to let his fine 21 year old cockiness prove a point.
Model Boy has reinstated himself on this list, somehow. Apparently he's single again.. and that night WAS fun..
My Ray of Sunshine has moved west. Which is fantastic for him, and probably for us. I adore him. He's beautiful and unique and heart-wrenchingly sweet. But he also can make me furious with a single word. Falling into bed with him -again- would have been easy, but it would have ruined us.
Then there's my Breath of Fresh Air, who rejuvenates me whenever we cross paths, but also takes a tiny piece of my heart with him when he leaves -and leave he does. He'll be here on the 20th. In for the show, out again afterwards. Damn those musicians. I hope they at least stay the night in town, it would be nice to spend more than a couple of hours with him.
Talupa
Kiddo
Punkin
Lucky
Pretty Face
Model Boy
Sunshine
Fresh
It has potential to be a busy couple of weeks.
And V. My sweet sweet V. Who is now living the life in Toronto that I so desperately wanted to live with him. He's coming out here for a visit at some point in the near future. I want to drag him into my bed and never let him leave, but at the same point I already gave him 3 years of my life and although it definitely wasn't a waste I don't know if I'm willing to give him any more, because I just don't think it can work, no matter how much both of us would like it to. I can't believe we've been apart for a year.
V
I miss his dreds, but he's still frickin' beautiful.
The thing is, I'm not really that interested or excited about any of them. Why is it so hard to find a man that I WANT? That I'm attracted to and excited about and can potentially see some sort of future with? I thought there might be potential with Ken-Leigh, but he went and crossed himself off the list without even giving me a chance.
I could write a soap opera / sitcom about my life. I swear.