I suppose its time
!!Happy Birthday to all the December 6th kids!!
Its hard to just pick up again, but this is for you, since I promised. I've been experiencing a lot of new lately and a lot of old. I kind of feel like there is a little battle going on my head. The battle of the old Jessi and the new Jessi. The one that likes to run from relationships and the one that likes to lie in them. I've felt lately, things that I realize I haven't felt in a long time, maybe never, and I'm scared, but happy that I am feeling them at least.
"I don’t know if we’d be better off
Living our own separate lives
Talking every once or twice
Whenever we need each other
I can’t picture another arm around you
Wonder how I would react
Would I scream and shout in anger,
Or would I maintain some tact?"
The thing that pisses me off the most is that I'm mad at myself for creating something out of a friendship that could be incredibly rewarding, amazing and strong....comfortable, full of admiration and love. I am thankful though, above all I am thankful. I am a lucky girl. I have no complaints about life. I am just living it. I have friends and family that I love and love me in return. Who could ask for anything more than that?
"But all you need is someone to love you
Who needs the rest?"
I am just learning as I go along. I love learning.
Its hard to just pick up again, but this is for you, since I promised. I've been experiencing a lot of new lately and a lot of old. I kind of feel like there is a little battle going on my head. The battle of the old Jessi and the new Jessi. The one that likes to run from relationships and the one that likes to lie in them. I've felt lately, things that I realize I haven't felt in a long time, maybe never, and I'm scared, but happy that I am feeling them at least.
"I don’t know if we’d be better off
Living our own separate lives
Talking every once or twice
Whenever we need each other
I can’t picture another arm around you
Wonder how I would react
Would I scream and shout in anger,
Or would I maintain some tact?"
The thing that pisses me off the most is that I'm mad at myself for creating something out of a friendship that could be incredibly rewarding, amazing and strong....comfortable, full of admiration and love. I am thankful though, above all I am thankful. I am a lucky girl. I have no complaints about life. I am just living it. I have friends and family that I love and love me in return. Who could ask for anything more than that?
"But all you need is someone to love you
Who needs the rest?"
I am just learning as I go along. I love learning.