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Back in July, I got a letter from HESAA (Higher Education Student Assistance Authority with this worksheet detailing my monthly expenses. I didn't have to file a tax return last year because I didn't make any money. I had 30 days to hand in the form.
Got another letter on August 3rd saying they had to cancel my TAG (Tuition Aid Grant) since they didn't get the paper in time. It also said I could hand in the sheet within 30 days and they'd re-review it.
I got back to the US on August 13th. Filled out the form and handed it in. Obsessively checked my student account and financial aid award letter. All was well.
Until three hours ago when I checked my term bill, and yep, my TAG is gone. I am kicking myself for not calling HESAA three weeks ago but I'm calling them in the morning. I was expecting a refund and I'm so worried that my TAG is just going to be gone. And if it isn't, I'm so broke and running out of food and really hoping to go grocery shopping this week so who knows how long it will take for them to straighten it out.
I am so fucking SICK of worrying about money. Honestly, if it's just gone...that's it. I'm just going to leave Rutgers and everything in this room behind, except for some essentials.
I'm just so tired of all of this. This is bullshit. It shouldn't have to be like this. So I guess I shouldn't have gone to Bolivia so I could have gotten that paper in on time.
Everything's a fucking trade off. With the whole "where the fuck am I going to live" situation, I feel like any semblance of security is just disintegrating. I can't survive in this ruthless system. So why not? Why not just go out into the world?
I just really wanted my degree. I guess in some way, my dad was right about my never being successful in school.
ETA: 30 minutes on the phone with HESAA. They got my info, takes up to 4-6 weeks to process. All I gotta do is wait. In the meantime, ration my rice n beans.
Fuck everything.
Got another letter on August 3rd saying they had to cancel my TAG (Tuition Aid Grant) since they didn't get the paper in time. It also said I could hand in the sheet within 30 days and they'd re-review it.
I got back to the US on August 13th. Filled out the form and handed it in. Obsessively checked my student account and financial aid award letter. All was well.
Until three hours ago when I checked my term bill, and yep, my TAG is gone. I am kicking myself for not calling HESAA three weeks ago but I'm calling them in the morning. I was expecting a refund and I'm so worried that my TAG is just going to be gone. And if it isn't, I'm so broke and running out of food and really hoping to go grocery shopping this week so who knows how long it will take for them to straighten it out.
I am so fucking SICK of worrying about money. Honestly, if it's just gone...that's it. I'm just going to leave Rutgers and everything in this room behind, except for some essentials.
I'm just so tired of all of this. This is bullshit. It shouldn't have to be like this. So I guess I shouldn't have gone to Bolivia so I could have gotten that paper in on time.
Everything's a fucking trade off. With the whole "where the fuck am I going to live" situation, I feel like any semblance of security is just disintegrating. I can't survive in this ruthless system. So why not? Why not just go out into the world?
I just really wanted my degree. I guess in some way, my dad was right about my never being successful in school.
ETA: 30 minutes on the phone with HESAA. They got my info, takes up to 4-6 weeks to process. All I gotta do is wait. In the meantime, ration my rice n beans.
Fuck everything.