Chop my fukking dick off
FUCK FUCK FUcK
I did it fukking agian.i did it again. fuck. I'm so fucking stupid I am. Fuck.
Why? why do i keep doing this, i always hat it and i hate myslef afterwards. why cant i get a grip. wahts my fukking problem. i'm so fukking stupid. why am i not in control of myself, i might as well be shitting myself like a little fucking kid.
I'm so stupid to keep doing this.
Once agin the two sides of my personality are in agreement and they agree that they both hate me again, more so this time. It was the worst time, it was so stupid. I was so vile, and disgusting, like everything i hate and dispise in other i was in myself. whats my fucking problem.
Its so bad this time, its bad enough that i would cut myself again. i need to learn i need to teach myself i cant do that.
This time i did stop though, befor it was too late, but it took me so long. i had to keep telling meself over and over "just say no, just tell him to stop" I had to tell myself over and over again and again befor i did, why couldn't i do it the fitrst time.
I'm so fukking dumb. I hate myself so much for that.
I have to maek a change, lots of things are going to change, i'm gonna cut alot of things out of my life, alot of people.I wish i could purge my soul like i can other things.
I wish i could purge myself.
I did it fukking agian.i did it again. fuck. I'm so fucking stupid I am. Fuck.
Why? why do i keep doing this, i always hat it and i hate myslef afterwards. why cant i get a grip. wahts my fukking problem. i'm so fukking stupid. why am i not in control of myself, i might as well be shitting myself like a little fucking kid.
I'm so stupid to keep doing this.
Once agin the two sides of my personality are in agreement and they agree that they both hate me again, more so this time. It was the worst time, it was so stupid. I was so vile, and disgusting, like everything i hate and dispise in other i was in myself. whats my fucking problem.
Its so bad this time, its bad enough that i would cut myself again. i need to learn i need to teach myself i cant do that.
This time i did stop though, befor it was too late, but it took me so long. i had to keep telling meself over and over "just say no, just tell him to stop" I had to tell myself over and over again and again befor i did, why couldn't i do it the fitrst time.
I'm so fukking dumb. I hate myself so much for that.
I have to maek a change, lots of things are going to change, i'm gonna cut alot of things out of my life, alot of people.I wish i could purge my soul like i can other things.
I wish i could purge myself.