Dec 06, 2004 07:39
NO! NO!
Waht the fuck?
WHY? WHY? WHY did that happen? WHy?
Waht the fuck did i thnik i was doning? WHY? fFUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK
SHIT HOLY FUKKING CHRIST WHY? WHY? HOW COULD I DID SUCH A THING
After all those times, all those times i said no, but last night. why?
What the fuck.
Ow GOd i hate myself, my bastard fukking self, selfish bastard, i hate you, i hate you so much you ruin my life all the time. Everytime. I hate you. I hate you both. fukking hell waht am i going to do now.
Oh God. God fauck. No
I'm sorry, jade, i'm so sorry. I dont know why i'm appologising to you specifically but i feel i ahve to. I'm so fukking sorry.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
SHIT ARSE CUNT SHAGGING FUCK BOLLOX ARSE!!!!!!!!!
fuck Why? WHY? WHY? WHY?
CRAP
I ahte you both so much, you especially i hate you i hate you, you ruin everything.
If if your lucky i wont make it hurt, but its likely that i shall, i'm going to make it hurt alot for you, if you made me do that last night then i can do this today. i hate you and i want to punnish you, even if that means punishing myels. Evrytime you hurt me you get away fre but if i want to even touch you i have to taek it out on mysel, you bastard. i wish you would fukking dir. I really do. I mean it. i want you to fukking die. Get out of my fukking head. I ahte you. I hate you and its going to hurt, if your luky i wont die, you better hope the people at owrk are on their guard today and find befor its too late you bastard. Right now if i Die i will miss alot and i dont want to, but if i can take you dwon with me then it will all be worth it.
Its going to hurt.