wow, im updating!
So I am sitting here waiting on my laundry and I am wondering why I cant just ever yell out what I am thinking in my head when I am angry. Amys mother yelled at me today and I could have bad mouthed her back, I could have said alot of things but I just sat there and took it all as I always do when I am angry and when I think too hard on what I should say. Why cant I just say what I feel just once? Robert gets annoyed how I dont say anything when I am mad, I just dont want to say anything rude. This situation reminds me off of the movie You've Got Mail. Ya know, how Meg Ryans character was the same way and Tom Hanks was the one that could say all the rude things but the remorse would also fallow right after. Well I just once want to see what its like even though I do know I will feel bad for it later. I just have to learn to stand up for myself....right? Or should I just stay the same old way, just a shaky little mouse when I am suppose to be angry and fierce. Who knows. All I know is that I dont want to be in this house any longer, sooner or later me and Amys mom are going to rip each others heads off. I think I am going to do that the day I leave. I will just spit out everything. Thats my plan and that is what is keeping me calm right now and will continue to calm me until that day comes. I dont have a place to live in Daphne for 3 months. I think I am just going to sleep in my car or something. Robert said he might mention sometihng to his mom but thats yet another family I will be intruding. I wish Daphnes apartments werent so expensive. I could live with Dorothy but thats my General Manager and she has a kid and a husband and I will feel really awkward. I mean I love Dorothy and all but thats just so awkward. Okay I am done, I think I will go check on my clothes....