moody......
Sigh......I am stressed. But I believe that I am trying to let it out in a good way. I am tired of work, tired of workcrap at home cleaning, packing and cleaning more just to leave so people can look at house. Physically, exhausted.
The car business costed a lot and now I have $9.36 to my name. Mom just got diagnosied with arthitis in her spine w/bone spurs, my young brother has high blood pressure and Jim & dad are going to bring him back north to see if he has to stay in jail somemore.
I want my own place, damn it. I think I am a combination of Christian beliefs and some pagan ones. hmmm.....I feel that I keep lying to myself about my religious beliefs and that is bugging the piss out of me.
I got invited to go to New Orleans, paying my own way of course, but with the house crap up in the air....I don't think I can go anywhere. Plus, money is a HUGE consideration...sigh.
I find it really hard sometimes to talk to good friends about my life stress. I hear it from them, offer advice and then try to explain my stress's and it doesn't go far. I think that is one of the many reasons I started journaling. The think about offering advice & people not really listening to my stresses has been happening my whole life. Fuck, no wonder why I am on anti-depressants.
Checkers is being such a good boy for being around 18 months of age! He is so cutest and gives me such love! I would like to adopt another doggie but must save up money to get Checkers trained a bit better:) Right now, I am working on letting him out of his kennel for longer periods of time when I leave the house & know that no-one is coming over to look at it. He has done very well so far:)
I try really hard not to be selfish. It seems that whenever I do something for myself, someone always pipes up, oh that is so selfish. hello, people, everyone needs to do something nice for yourself.
Thanks for letting me vent....
The car business costed a lot and now I have $9.36 to my name. Mom just got diagnosied with arthitis in her spine w/bone spurs, my young brother has high blood pressure and Jim & dad are going to bring him back north to see if he has to stay in jail somemore.
I want my own place, damn it. I think I am a combination of Christian beliefs and some pagan ones. hmmm.....I feel that I keep lying to myself about my religious beliefs and that is bugging the piss out of me.
I got invited to go to New Orleans, paying my own way of course, but with the house crap up in the air....I don't think I can go anywhere. Plus, money is a HUGE consideration...sigh.
I find it really hard sometimes to talk to good friends about my life stress. I hear it from them, offer advice and then try to explain my stress's and it doesn't go far. I think that is one of the many reasons I started journaling. The think about offering advice & people not really listening to my stresses has been happening my whole life. Fuck, no wonder why I am on anti-depressants.
Checkers is being such a good boy for being around 18 months of age! He is so cutest and gives me such love! I would like to adopt another doggie but must save up money to get Checkers trained a bit better:) Right now, I am working on letting him out of his kennel for longer periods of time when I leave the house & know that no-one is coming over to look at it. He has done very well so far:)
I try really hard not to be selfish. It seems that whenever I do something for myself, someone always pipes up, oh that is so selfish. hello, people, everyone needs to do something nice for yourself.
Thanks for letting me vent....