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it's hard to trust anybody. everything is so hard when you don't find your comfort in ignorance. it may be so harmful but i want to know because i can't think of anything worse than just not knowing. i carry this attitude with me through all of my endeavours. i can't understand why i seem to find myself sitting here with this feeling in my stomach. i can't understand why i should be. sometimes i wish i could go back to that point in my existence where i could just sit on the sidewalk or in the grass and feel so grounded and connected and remember why i made so many of those decisions that i did. i'm losing the callouses on the bottom of my feet and on my fingertips. i'm in love with a girl.