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I've always told myself that I get the best ideas in the middle of the night, but I'm not exactly sure if thats true or not. Yes, my mind does wonder alot, but lately, all I can think about are sad things. I think about all the people I love that are leaving me so soon. Sooner than I relize. And there is nothing I can do to hang onto them any longer. Thinking about all that makes me appreciate time and how you spend it in your life so much more.
Lately, the smallest things have been driving me crazy! I just found out that my ex of three years is dating one of my old best friends from high school. I know that shouldn't bother me. Honestly, I am happy for him. But it just makes me feel really weird somehow. But I am more weirded out by the fact that we used to hang out and go on double dates all the time. It's funny how life works sometimes.
I always wondered if I let things get to me too much. Because I know i shouldn't let that scenario bother me, but it still does somehow. Maybe I just shouldn't care about things anymore. Sometimes thats harder said than done. I try not to be a negative person, but when I see or hear about things that hurt me, all I can do is close myself up and wonder what I did wrong to make that situation happen. God, why do I do that?! No wonder I don't have a boyfriend! At least I am aware of the fact that I do it... Thats a good thing, right?
God, I hate being in these types of moods. You can never seem to get out of them.
Lately, I have been trying to pray alot more often. Especially when I get sad. My friend Joe has been trying to get me to understand mormon beliefs lately. They are actually really interesting. We have had some amazing discusions about their religion. He even gave me his old book of mormon to keep so when he is on his mission I can continue to read about it. Don't worry guys, I'm not going to become a mormon anytime soon. I just think it is interesting to read about.
I think I found a new hobby! I used to draw alot and make scrapbooks all the time for friends and loved ones. But lately I have been getting into painting real pictures and doing "hands on" things like makeing jewelry. It is actually very relaxing and gives me time to think about alot of things going on in my life. Also, I have been having alot of fun decorateing my apartment lately with really cool stuff. Yeah for IKEA!!!!!
Lately, the smallest things have been driving me crazy! I just found out that my ex of three years is dating one of my old best friends from high school. I know that shouldn't bother me. Honestly, I am happy for him. But it just makes me feel really weird somehow. But I am more weirded out by the fact that we used to hang out and go on double dates all the time. It's funny how life works sometimes.
I always wondered if I let things get to me too much. Because I know i shouldn't let that scenario bother me, but it still does somehow. Maybe I just shouldn't care about things anymore. Sometimes thats harder said than done. I try not to be a negative person, but when I see or hear about things that hurt me, all I can do is close myself up and wonder what I did wrong to make that situation happen. God, why do I do that?! No wonder I don't have a boyfriend! At least I am aware of the fact that I do it... Thats a good thing, right?
God, I hate being in these types of moods. You can never seem to get out of them.
Lately, I have been trying to pray alot more often. Especially when I get sad. My friend Joe has been trying to get me to understand mormon beliefs lately. They are actually really interesting. We have had some amazing discusions about their religion. He even gave me his old book of mormon to keep so when he is on his mission I can continue to read about it. Don't worry guys, I'm not going to become a mormon anytime soon. I just think it is interesting to read about.
I think I found a new hobby! I used to draw alot and make scrapbooks all the time for friends and loved ones. But lately I have been getting into painting real pictures and doing "hands on" things like makeing jewelry. It is actually very relaxing and gives me time to think about alot of things going on in my life. Also, I have been having alot of fun decorateing my apartment lately with really cool stuff. Yeah for IKEA!!!!!