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Jun 15, 2010 13:13

What an annoying waste of girl.

I have had four weeks off and I cant say I have done anything at all. I tanned once. I read Carrie. I cleaned my apartment once. Haven't drawn anything worth anybody's time. I haven't written at all. I am literally lying around in my own filth.
I dont even see the point of getting dressed.

And even worse is Jason. He is working so much. I know he thinks about me but its hard to be happy about it because it just doesnt seem like he really is thinking about me. Or that he wants to see me even. hes always tired or not feeling well. Maybe i am being harsh.

uhg. i cant even write right now i dont know what it is i want to say. I cant make thoughts. i have so much i should be doing.

-car
-unemploym,ent.
i dont even want to write about it!!! i dont careee!!!!! fuking a. why do i feel so stagnant. i dont want to deal with anything. i just want to be over today.

i obsess about jason. i jhave too much time on my hands. i need something to do. i look at his pictures. i just drive my self crazy. maybe if i get really skinny he will want to fuck me.
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