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6 minutes. That's my time limit. I'm going to sum up the last few days in a list.
Friday:
I moved in. I put down Willow. I found out that my grandmother doesn't have internet and is "against" it. I had no contact with friends besides Jackie, who is like... always gone lately.
Saturday:
I went to work. It was shit. I came home and had to play with a 3 year old all night, and I didn't really talk to my friends... again.
Sunday:
I finally got to at least go to Jackie's. I gave Pat to Anna. My grandma called me screaming, telling me that I couldn't hang out with Ryan and I had to come home. I got home at 6. Until 9, her, my aunt diane, my cousin amanda, and my cousin sarah screamed at me. They went through my things and found my incense; they told me it was satanism. They told me if I was unhappy I could go live at the Y with my mom. They told me that I should have gotten two jobs and paid the rent and bills because my mom couldn't, that I was selfish for saving up to get myself a car. they're forcing me to apply to colleges even though it's really late and I haven't taken SATs and I won't get in anywhere. They told me I was a vegan to hide anorexia. I've barely eaten in the past few days because i've been so stressed. Why would you tell someone whose mother is a drunk, who just got evicted, and whose father is a hobo in jail that they should go live on the streets? And now.. midterms, and this midterm project, and applications letters, and $90.00 to take the SATs in a week and a half... who's going to Central? I'll probably end up going there, if I don't go to MCC, it's the only non-creepy college that MIGHT take me...
just because they think that I won't have a home by the time MCC rolls around. They said so much horrible shit about my mom, but I have to be there for her.
Monday:
My mom came over. I got a bloody nose that lasted for an hour. My mom cried to me and I had to be the adult and treat her like the kid. I have to call her every day... I feel like everyone around me is insane and I'm the only one who isn't.
I may not even be able to go to OK Go.. even though it's a Saturday.
fuck this.
Friday:
I moved in. I put down Willow. I found out that my grandmother doesn't have internet and is "against" it. I had no contact with friends besides Jackie, who is like... always gone lately.
Saturday:
I went to work. It was shit. I came home and had to play with a 3 year old all night, and I didn't really talk to my friends... again.
Sunday:
I finally got to at least go to Jackie's. I gave Pat to Anna. My grandma called me screaming, telling me that I couldn't hang out with Ryan and I had to come home. I got home at 6. Until 9, her, my aunt diane, my cousin amanda, and my cousin sarah screamed at me. They went through my things and found my incense; they told me it was satanism. They told me if I was unhappy I could go live at the Y with my mom. They told me that I should have gotten two jobs and paid the rent and bills because my mom couldn't, that I was selfish for saving up to get myself a car. they're forcing me to apply to colleges even though it's really late and I haven't taken SATs and I won't get in anywhere. They told me I was a vegan to hide anorexia. I've barely eaten in the past few days because i've been so stressed. Why would you tell someone whose mother is a drunk, who just got evicted, and whose father is a hobo in jail that they should go live on the streets? And now.. midterms, and this midterm project, and applications letters, and $90.00 to take the SATs in a week and a half... who's going to Central? I'll probably end up going there, if I don't go to MCC, it's the only non-creepy college that MIGHT take me...
just because they think that I won't have a home by the time MCC rolls around. They said so much horrible shit about my mom, but I have to be there for her.
Monday:
My mom came over. I got a bloody nose that lasted for an hour. My mom cried to me and I had to be the adult and treat her like the kid. I have to call her every day... I feel like everyone around me is insane and I'm the only one who isn't.
I may not even be able to go to OK Go.. even though it's a Saturday.
fuck this.