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All this moaning and groaning about my separation, you'd think was unhappy right now. That's actually not true. I'm in a pretty good mood most of the time. The weekends can be hard, and I'm starting one now, but when things are bad, I can say that things have been worse for me before.
I'm the one who wants to leave. I'm already feeling a little freer, a little closer to the person I'm becoming, to who I want to be. Not as much looking over my shoulder, wondering where I stand, or if I've done something wrong.
So many possibilities. I feel it! I know it's going to be hard, of course, but I think it's going to very good, very good indeed.
Many people have stood by me over the past 1.5 years, urging me, listening to me endlessly chase my tail about what to do. Some of these friends have been muttering under their breath for some time, saying "Get out! Just do it!" But as another friend said, you can't force the process. People go when they're ready, and not before.
I tried to leave three times before this. I wasn't ready yet. I'm ready now, and I'm looking forward with anticipation to opening the door to something new. What it is, I can't say yet. But it feels right.
I'm the one who wants to leave. I'm already feeling a little freer, a little closer to the person I'm becoming, to who I want to be. Not as much looking over my shoulder, wondering where I stand, or if I've done something wrong.
So many possibilities. I feel it! I know it's going to be hard, of course, but I think it's going to very good, very good indeed.
Many people have stood by me over the past 1.5 years, urging me, listening to me endlessly chase my tail about what to do. Some of these friends have been muttering under their breath for some time, saying "Get out! Just do it!" But as another friend said, you can't force the process. People go when they're ready, and not before.
I tried to leave three times before this. I wasn't ready yet. I'm ready now, and I'm looking forward with anticipation to opening the door to something new. What it is, I can't say yet. But it feels right.