selfish
K says all her friends say I'm being very selfish.
I guess it's true. I'm not willing to stay "for the children," and throwing the entire family into an uproar.
I think her friends are right. I am being selfish.
I don't know what else to do. No one else will take care of my needs for me. I'm responsible for myself, and if I can't live in the situation I'm in with integrity, what good is it? K said something about not being willing to work at it. It's not that I didn't work at it - it's that it never changed my conviction that I don't want to be here, and I can't be the person I'm called to be if I stay married, and I can't be the husband K deserves, either.
Self-justification, the load of it, I guess. We'll see in a year or two what I've made of this. I've made a lot of people very unhappy because of this; I'd better make it worth it.
I guess it's true. I'm not willing to stay "for the children," and throwing the entire family into an uproar.
I think her friends are right. I am being selfish.
I don't know what else to do. No one else will take care of my needs for me. I'm responsible for myself, and if I can't live in the situation I'm in with integrity, what good is it? K said something about not being willing to work at it. It's not that I didn't work at it - it's that it never changed my conviction that I don't want to be here, and I can't be the person I'm called to be if I stay married, and I can't be the husband K deserves, either.
Self-justification, the load of it, I guess. We'll see in a year or two what I've made of this. I've made a lot of people very unhappy because of this; I'd better make it worth it.