getting a little more off balance
I don't like to admit when I'm getting off balance, but it's clearly happening this week. I'm guessing it's not chemical; I haven't made any changes on that score.
But yesterday, I really went off on a friend who sent me an email. I was doing it in self-righteous indignation, but that's something I don't normally indulge in. I apologized, but I'm still very sorry about it. It's a developing friendship, and I'm afraid I've tainted it for the moment. But we'll see.
And the last two evenings I've felt really off balance, anxious, upset, jittery. Might be because I'm getting ever closer to leaving.
I really wished there was someone I could call tonight and just talk me down a little. But there isn't.
I am coming down a little. One Godiva dark chocolate bar and some orange-flavored vodka later, I'm at least calmed a bit. I think.
If you pray, please pray for me. Keep me in your thoughts. Life is not easy right now.
But yesterday, I really went off on a friend who sent me an email. I was doing it in self-righteous indignation, but that's something I don't normally indulge in. I apologized, but I'm still very sorry about it. It's a developing friendship, and I'm afraid I've tainted it for the moment. But we'll see.
And the last two evenings I've felt really off balance, anxious, upset, jittery. Might be because I'm getting ever closer to leaving.
I really wished there was someone I could call tonight and just talk me down a little. But there isn't.
I am coming down a little. One Godiva dark chocolate bar and some orange-flavored vodka later, I'm at least calmed a bit. I think.
If you pray, please pray for me. Keep me in your thoughts. Life is not easy right now.