a quicky
I got shitfaced on Saturday and I think I am just starting to get my brain chemicals back in place. It was rough. I keep having kinda dark thoughts about life, relationships with others and things like that. At times, I feel kinda stuck, like I am stuck in my patterns of thinking and thus, it's not possible to get out of the same loops that I've created. But I am not a closed system, I interact with others - so, in principle, it should be possible to get enough external input that these internal loops change. That is provided I am open to it.
Maybe this sounds like a metaphor. Maybe, I ought to be more clear in my speech - language is a packaging for your thoughts, I read recently. It kinda is. The more eloquent you can be, the more others can possibly stand a chance at understanding you.
Objective reality is barely useful when it comes to interpersonal relationships, I think. I don't know man.
I'm really tired. But, I have been writing this long lecture series that I will share here at some point, for no other purpose than I am not sure why. A professor in the department said maybe I could turn it into a book, which I am not that interested in, but if I fix all the typos and what not, I'll publish this on arxiv. PEAK VIBES.