Apr 07, 2020 09:42
It's not an easy situation for anyone. If I am not very happy right now, it has reasons, namely, it's hard to be in a new place and in isolation. That's all. A friend of mine realised yesterday, when he was asking me how I was doing, and telling me it's been totally ok for him - he lives with his partner, in the community he has known for many years. He recognized it was not easy for me, and I sorta appreciated that, but at the same time, I don't need other people to recognize it, I don't need other people to tell me I am doing better than expected.
I think I am, knowing myself.
It's still hard. Saying I am happy or even just ok is not accurate but that's normal, it's because it's a hard situation. And what I can do is to keep being fine enough, keep up healthy habits, don't self-sabotage: eat well, sleep well, call home, work, exercise, think in a productive way, and wait until the situation gets better.
Wishing to be happy or to feel happy right now will probably only result in disappointment. Like, I do all these things and I still feel bad, why? Of course you will feel bad! The situation sucks! It's like, when bad things happen, it will suck, and you won't be happy. And that's only normal. But will you fall apart? That's the test. Do you feel bad because of the situation, or are you making your situation worse? That's the thing to keep in mind. Do as good as possible. And be patient. Things will change. And things will get better, they always do, but it takes time.
Lots of love.
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