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At the request of Stephanie Smith, the previous entry has been changed from a "Public" entry to a "Private" entry.
Now, an update on that whole situation:
Friday a meeting was held in Mr. Snyder's classroom during 5th/6th hour to discuss the whole situation. Max asked that everyone from that group of friends be present at the meeting in order to talk everything out. Max appologized for his behavior, and made it very clear to the entire group in attendance that he did not feel i made a bad choice in calling the police, and that this whole situation is in no way, shape, or form MY fault. I appreciate and accept his appology.
It is to my understanding that the rest of the group...Kristin, Elise, James, Thor, Stephanie, and Mike were completely uninvolved with the phone calls. That is what i was told on friday.
Although, because I have heard different from few people within the group, and few people who talk to people within the group, i'm going to say that i believe SOME people within the group did know that the phone calls were going on, yet did not know the nature of the phone calls. - They didn't know what was being said to me.
When i left the meeting on friday i felt that for the most part, everyone was on decent terms with one another.
During the meeting the topic of Bailey and Celina came up, Ms. Bostwick was unaware that they were involved as much as they were... she asked if perhaps they should be invited to come, or at the very least, felt that they should be informed about the discussion that was taking place.
I discussed the meeting with Bailey. I would like to say that i feel i was not bias (sp?) at all in the relaying of the meeting, i told her that i felt everyone was very truthful with me, i felt that everyone appologized for what had happened... and i felt that although i may not be able to be part of that close knit group anymore, we left having no terrible feelings toward one another.
Bailey was upset though. Due to a conversation she had on wednesday night, she believes that i am being lied to by some of the people that were at the meeting.
Sunday afternoon James called me and asked that i come to coffee with he and Elise to talk about everything. They said that they saw what was written here, and that they'd like to discuss everything with me. I wasn't able to go to coffee on Sunday because i already had plans with tyler, but i would like to get together to talk. I know that to them i probably seemed like i was blowing them off... which really is unfortunate, but i'd like to say right now that i didn't mean to come off that way and that i'm completely willing to get together and talk one on one, or two on one, or whatever. (As soon as i get over this cold...)
I was confronted at school today, and told that Bailey is not telling me the truth. I was told that the mean things Bailey told me were said about me behind my back are untrue. I was told that in fact, those things were never said about me at all. I was told that my entry has caused a lot of stress and hurt feelings. I was told that because of all of this, friendships have been lost.
I'm sorry that all of this drama has been stirred up. The entry that was posted before this one, was posted thursday afternoon when i came home from school in the middle of the day. I think that some people misunderstood and thought that it was posted after our meeting on friday. That isn't true. I felt the need to post the story in order to let everyone know about what happened. I was under the impression that a lot of people at school thought i "called the cops on max" meaning that i KNEW it was max before i called the police. This is untrue. I need everyone to understand that when i wrote that entry i was extremely upset, and because of that, it is obvious that i took out some of my hurt feelings on people that i assumed were involved, or people that i was told by friends were involved. I know that the entry has hurt the feelings of people i was once friends with. When i wrote the entry THAT is was was true to me at THAT moment. I didn't lie or embelish the story at all. When i wrote the entry, what i wrote down was how i was feeling, and what i knew to be true in that moment. After discussions at school, i now know that some of that entry WAS true, some of it WASN'T and some of it we still don't know whether it's true or not.
I am confused as to what exactly is the truth. One group of people are telling me that they were completely uninvolved, knew nothing about the phone calls, and never said anything negative about me behind my back. On the other hand, another group of friends are telling me something completely different. In addition, a comment that was posted on my previous entry confesses that in fact most people in that group of kids DID know about what was going on. I suppose this means that i am being lied to by someone... i'm just not sure who yet.
Tomorrow morning i have a meeting with three other girls to discuss this further and see if we can come to some sort of conclusion about what was or wasn't said on wednesday behind my back... I just don't know who to believe right now. Tears or friends??
---I'm sorry if this entry seems jumbled, and doesn't really make sense. Im trying not to just BLAB out all names of people connected to negative things... because if those things end up not being true... i'd feel bad.