To Ancient Evenings and Distant Music
I was hoping that I'd get to see Momma K before I leave for California on the 11th, but it looks as though that won't be happening. I told her the last time I called (which was just after we'd gotten back from DC, if I remember correctly) when I'd be leaving and we talked about maybe going to see a movie or having lunch/dinner, but she hadn't called, so I decided to take matters into my own hands, and naturally, it of course ended only in heartbreak for me. I wasn't nervous, but I was worried I'd sound like a nag, but I didn't have to, because she basically flat out told me that she's busy all this week and she and Bobby are leaving to go to Durant with his family on Thursday (they won't be back until Monday, and I leave that Wednesday). She said something about talking to me again before I left, but I'm putting it in her hands to call me if she really wants to. The whole thing just disappointed me. She has a knack for telling me she loves me when she knows I need to hear it, like at the end of our conversation today. I can't even remember when the last time was that I actually saw her, that's how long it's been. Oh my gosh, I think it may have been over winter break when she and Mrs. Fuerst and I all sat in Mrs. Fuerst's room together that last time. Damn, that's over six months ago. It's SO hard keeping in touch and maintaining a meaningful relationship with people that you don't see on a semi-regular basis.
After that this afternoon, I was ready to just let Meryl take me away from all this and go see The Devil Wears Prada again, but my mother saw that I was down and said she'd go with me if I'd wait until tomorrow, so I agreed. So I went on a cleaning binge instead. Yep, went back to my room, listened to my music and cleaned up most everything that had gathered on the floor after the miraculous desk-clearing episode and put away clothes and such. After that, I was just tired, so I watched the last hour of House of the Spirits (which Shari had interrupted the night before) and sulked. My mood was quite elevated when I realized that Keillor's A Prairie Home Companion Fourth of July special (with special guest star Meryl Streep) had been recorded yesterday and was being broadcast on PBS at 9 EST. I watched that and felt better. She was so cute, and her hair looked very nice this time! Plus, I love hearing both her and Jearlyn Steele sing; just marvelous! I think Garrison has a big ol' crush on Meryl, and she kind of humors him. It's cute.
I really need to figure out something constructive to do with my time until I leave, because I'm about to go stir-crazy.
After that this afternoon, I was ready to just let Meryl take me away from all this and go see The Devil Wears Prada again, but my mother saw that I was down and said she'd go with me if I'd wait until tomorrow, so I agreed. So I went on a cleaning binge instead. Yep, went back to my room, listened to my music and cleaned up most everything that had gathered on the floor after the miraculous desk-clearing episode and put away clothes and such. After that, I was just tired, so I watched the last hour of House of the Spirits (which Shari had interrupted the night before) and sulked. My mood was quite elevated when I realized that Keillor's A Prairie Home Companion Fourth of July special (with special guest star Meryl Streep) had been recorded yesterday and was being broadcast on PBS at 9 EST. I watched that and felt better. She was so cute, and her hair looked very nice this time! Plus, I love hearing both her and Jearlyn Steele sing; just marvelous! I think Garrison has a big ol' crush on Meryl, and she kind of humors him. It's cute.
I really need to figure out something constructive to do with my time until I leave, because I'm about to go stir-crazy.