smart people do dumb things too, but then again that doesn't apply here
Our teacher cancelled class yesterday so we could have the whole day to study for today's final. I wasn't fooling myself into believing I was going to study all day; but to not even study for an hour! I spent all of yesterday playing on the computer and watching TV. You'd think I would be smart enough to spend some time studying the 11 chapters that were going to be on the test, but no. I am a fucking moron! The fact that 30% of my grade was riding on this test and I couldn't afford a bad grade had no effect on me whatsoever. I will reitterate - I am a fucking moron. All my "studying" was done on the train ride this morning. And once again, I am a fucking moron.
So come test time and I have no idea what I'm doing. Of course I don't because (all together now,) I'm a fucking moron. Funny thing is that every answer I was getting was a "D." Coincidence or fate telling me my future? I was seriously getting frustrated. I ended up being the first to leave after only and hour and 20 minutes (it was a multiple choice test with 20 questions and 4 open-ended word problems.) I just couldn’t take staring at those D's any longer! And tomorrow I have my lab final. Do you think I learned my lesson? Maybe, but don't be surprised if tomorrow’s entry looks identical because (what is it class?) I'm a fucking moron.
Moving on to something else a bit less dumb. I got my blood work results from the doctor on friday. As I thought, my testosterone was an incredible amount more than allowable for a female my age (stupid PCOS.) What shocked me the most was my cholesterol level - 256! How in the world can my cholesterol be that goddamn high?! I am only 19! My dad's is about the same number and he's taking Lipitor for it. I refuse to believe that my cholesterol is 256, it's just not possible, they made a mistake at the hospital. I don't eat anything that is high in artery clogging crap. I have a burger maybe 5 times a year if that. That majority of my food intake consists of sandwiches/hoagies, pastas and an occasional pizza. And of course he will restrict my diet and I won’t be allowed to eat anything I like. I also found out that I'm on the border of being diagnosed as pre-diabetic. Which means further restrictions to my diet! Eventually I’ll just be grazing in the backyard because that is all I'll be allowed to fucking eat.
This is exactly why I hate doctors and going to doctors. They tell you things you don't want to hear. I am a full believer in the mantra "ignorance is bliss". Before I had those stupid tests done I didn't know any of this crap and therefore didn't have to worry about it. I hate doctors.
So come test time and I have no idea what I'm doing. Of course I don't because (all together now,) I'm a fucking moron. Funny thing is that every answer I was getting was a "D." Coincidence or fate telling me my future? I was seriously getting frustrated. I ended up being the first to leave after only and hour and 20 minutes (it was a multiple choice test with 20 questions and 4 open-ended word problems.) I just couldn’t take staring at those D's any longer! And tomorrow I have my lab final. Do you think I learned my lesson? Maybe, but don't be surprised if tomorrow’s entry looks identical because (what is it class?) I'm a fucking moron.
Moving on to something else a bit less dumb. I got my blood work results from the doctor on friday. As I thought, my testosterone was an incredible amount more than allowable for a female my age (stupid PCOS.) What shocked me the most was my cholesterol level - 256! How in the world can my cholesterol be that goddamn high?! I am only 19! My dad's is about the same number and he's taking Lipitor for it. I refuse to believe that my cholesterol is 256, it's just not possible, they made a mistake at the hospital. I don't eat anything that is high in artery clogging crap. I have a burger maybe 5 times a year if that. That majority of my food intake consists of sandwiches/hoagies, pastas and an occasional pizza. And of course he will restrict my diet and I won’t be allowed to eat anything I like. I also found out that I'm on the border of being diagnosed as pre-diabetic. Which means further restrictions to my diet! Eventually I’ll just be grazing in the backyard because that is all I'll be allowed to fucking eat.
This is exactly why I hate doctors and going to doctors. They tell you things you don't want to hear. I am a full believer in the mantra "ignorance is bliss". Before I had those stupid tests done I didn't know any of this crap and therefore didn't have to worry about it. I hate doctors.