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I want someone here to want to hang out with me... I hate constantly meeting people I think I could love but not knowing what to say or do to make them want to be friends with me. I hate seeing people I want to meet and knowing that I mostly meet the assholes here. Being in the room with one person when their roomate reminds me of friends back home and I wish I'd met them... and there's nothing I can do. What do you do? I want to have enough confidence to feel okay, to start a conversation with someone I've met that seems amazing. I'm tired of listening to cocorosie in my room alone, thinking about how lonely I am. Why am I so unapproachable? I want to go to France. I want to swallow the world, but all I do is think about it. Am I too boring? too interesting? too quite? too loud? too pretty? too plain? too blonde? too tall? too short? too fat? too skinny? too open? too unapproachable? too eager? too apprehensive? I'm a pussy cat, a bunny... I love too easily. why are people scared of me? cold to me? it makes me hate myself. I want to feel myself again... I want to connect with another person
I miss home. I miss being surrounded by people who understand me
I miss home. I miss being surrounded by people who understand me